world of black n white

Sunday, January 31, 2010 { 10:39 PM }

hmmm... in 2hour's time ah boon is 21 le! the first to hit the big 21 in our ite clique... anyways just came back from his chalet celebration.. quite cool actually.. manage to sabotage him... the whole clique 'pa kat' push him into the swimming pool n smash cream onto his WHOLE head... den i train-ed all the way back to jurong myself.. sian.

i found out that i'm a very lousy multi-tasker.. when playing mahjong and i'm thinking about some other thing else, i tend to anyhow play and in e end, lose money. the more serious the thing i'm thinking, the more i get distracted.

den as usual my same routine everyday i walk home from lakeside.. den i was thinking something just now, but i watched for green man den i cross this damn big junction infront of lakeside station. this FUCKIN bus driver, turning my direction from opposite NEVER STOP! just becox no car he turn... but got 1 PEDESTRIAN! which is me... knn the bus is just like 5 inches away from my body... half the length of a t-gauge.. for those who are archers....

knn i walk faster 1 step, there goes my head. lucky he do hand signal to apologize.. fuck!

anyways.. very soon it will be my turn to be 21 le!!! although i'm having problems with settling my catering for the day.. but hell yea! everybody close will be invited.. just wait for it.. =)

and... i should be working part time to pay my bills le... so... more or less maybe i cant go for NTU's ivp this year le... which means i will be skipping 2 years in a row.. sian.. but hope i can go..
should be working for ICA... Ping works there as passport approver... Da gu have a old friend there working as ICA operations director... so i thk it shouldnt be a problem... 5.99 per hour.. good money sio... OT, 1.5X... got CPF also.. =)

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what i dont see, doesnt hurt me.
but what i dont see, still happens.
it makes me a runner from facts that cant be changed.
it makes me a coward to reality.
it makes me unable to stand up from where i fell.
no one is gonna help me get up. i have to do it myself.

and. its time to move on.

(created by eugene chiam, copy righted)
more details, in the private sector

Saturday, January 30, 2010 { 10:45 PM }

hmm time flies and its gonna be week 15 of sem 2 at rp alrready... very soon we gotta change class again... and i dont like that very much..

and yes i didnt shoot for today's competition.. too cock up so sua... went down to support them instead.

n i as usual i dont quite like people calling me chiam. becox it sounds so like my dad. i cant believe i turned when my dad's fren called out chiam. bloody hell. and i dont really see eye to eye with him. hate how he treats my mum. totally opposite from my set of values. how to love ur wife n child.

going the extra mile for you.. =)

Thursday, January 28, 2010 { 11:50 PM }

i'm totally ok when i joke joke around...

i'm ok when i scold people

when i'm totally not ok and to my limit already, i will just shut up and stand one corner.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 { 8:48 AM }

i'm so so so sorry.. =(

it became my sole responsibility

if you feel that i'm really this kinda person

and its all my fault

things are not always so simple as what i say

Tuesday, January 26, 2010 { 9:45 PM }

hmmm... can i say that sbs drivers are smarter den smrt bus drivers? ok here's my case... my house to lakeside usually takes 10mins.. but due to shuqun pri, my journey in e morning takes around 30mins... after weeks of observations, 98 drivers will use the outer lane to beat the Q... but! 187 drivers join the Q! damn. 98 takes only 20min.. eat some shit...

anyways today driving was awesome!!! i did a U-turn and practise down gear... 4 to 3, 3, to 2... and run the whole bukit batok estate in peak hour... 6pm around there... and i'm getting the hang of it... instructor sunny say i more stable liao.. =)

Monday, January 25, 2010 { 10:27 PM }

hmmm i must ask.. i wear bermudas and sandals to school very weird meh? how come today where ever i go in school, those i know de always will look at me very "weirdly" and say something like, 'sia la... did i see wrong thing?'

lol khai even more worse.. he look at me very shock.. say, 'what happened to u chiam!' i was like errrrr? -_-. he say dont look like me... look very cute. oh comeon.. very cute this word is not for me ok.......... this term more suitable for june jie... right people? =)

haix.. see them one by one pass their TP... when is my turn!!! i haven even book a date, and i am still very nervous and tmr is my 6th lesson.. die la. how to pass?

anyways i'm quite sick of partialing le... 2 weeks can partial 3 times.. jialat u noe? last sem whole sem i only partial 1 time.. now is like almost 6-8 times le.. somemore partial le got ppl not happy de.. whats the point?

and yea.. i'm very very broke liao... hp bill mum not paying anymore, i gotta carry it myself.. lim is there bugging for money and if i dont pay him soon, i gotta pay fine. fuck it. always when i wanna thank him for helping me, he come up with all this shit to make me shag. power la.

Saturday, January 23, 2010 { 11:43 PM }

sorry. I'm just angry.

and i dont like the way you command me.

{ 10:50 PM }

oh ya, DPDP ar?

different people different perception.

same action may have

different meaning to others.

you dont explain no-one will know.

{ 10:40 PM }

although you're that special person, but it doesn't give you the right to hurt me or put me into any trouble!

becox i'm NO ONE, TO YOU

and i have said before, not that i don't care for u anymore, its just that i needa care for myself as no one will.

you may know my habits well, but you never knew what was, and am thinking now. so quit saying i misinterpret, understand or don't know. I know what you've done behind me in the past. keeping quiet doesn't mean i don't know anything. Just becox u are my gf then, i gotta close 1 eye and shut whole mouth.

u tell me i dont understand u. for 3years when i ask or wanna know something, i always get this answer. "i tell u before liao, i dont wanna repeat. and u never change." in the first place when i wanna listen, u dont tell me. When i'm still angry, u pi li pa la shoot everything out. will it go in? i'm a guy, with an ego too. like this, i will never understand. and u never knew my character? can i say this?

can u tell me, whatever u've told me when i'm ok, which one did not change? which one did i NOT TRY TO CHANGE?

Friday, January 22, 2010 { 11:48 PM }

sian... feeling quite down.. haix.

anyways here are some photos of the formal day taken by june...

w34p

the back.... side

tang

joey

n june

Thursday, January 21, 2010 { 9:43 PM }

hmm i'm so bored so i'm uploading some new pic of my cute little girl!
she went to the kranji farm resort with her dad n mum...

look at her whole row of teeth!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 { 10:39 PM }

hmmm this is me, this is my logic n principle...

Don't respect and appreciate me, I will rather not bother and care. Even if I have to force myself to not care, I will do my best at it.
Goes the same with teamwork n friends.

I might wanna care alot but one sided thing doesnt last. It needs to be reciprocated.

Care is not given freely, it is earned and must be maintained to make it last. To anyone out there.. =)

*when i keep quiet, don't bother, don't care or treat you as transparent, thats it. its the end.*
and i'll just back off

Sunday, January 17, 2010 { 2:29 PM }

sian i didnt manage to get any sponsor for my bangkok trip... so, i'm so broke.. gotta squeeze every cent out that i have liao.. die.

tmr da gu is gonna book the chalet for me.. hope we can manage to get the sea view terrace.. if not really GG liao.. go grass field celeb my 21st b,day like... bangala style.. lol
(maybe rp lawn?)

and i'm very worried for my archery.. dono will i be in time to correct my form for the competition or nt... worse come to the worse i drop out liao... haix. next sat is trial for the competition.. selection. I shld be the best in rp becox of my prior experience... but now? god.

ok.. now for some pictures of JQ's birthday night..

while waiting for andre

lol..

our drink for e night.. bombay sapphire

the kick start

da!

the starting of our game

my turn to 'bi' cards..

act only.. but BOM liao

the 3 aunties

lol.. i lost 1 full shot cup

abit seh liao..

the night's cohort

*u know i'll always be there for u.. =)*

Saturday, January 16, 2010 { 11:15 PM }

waaa... today training totally cui... my alarm went off at 6.05am because yesterday i jus fainted on the bed and forgot to put my iphone to charge and forgot to set the correct timing for today to wake up... fuck...

had one hell of a night with the peeps at w34p... its JQ's birthday so we went drinking at night! ok the place aint very fantastic.. i thk its around upper thomson uh? lol don ask me i'm a noob when it comes to locations..

due to joey, we tried something new... didnt order chivas with a liquor content of 40%? but got bombay sapphire which was 47%...

hmm darren and my liquor level is slightly better den them, so when we played the game of 21 on cards, darren and i share and be banker... lose, 1 sip of pure... gor leng and ban luck 2 sips.. ban ban 3 sips.. i thk i most suay 1... always my turn to be banker, sure bomb.. 1 person lose to 7... 1 shot glass oso not enough.. -_-
(me and darren started off with a "da" on the rocks for the day)

after like 1hr? all of them started to go crazy liao... darren oso abit tak bo leh tahan liao... so i took most of what he gotta drink... pure... out of 750ml i thk i took 200ml... wa kao.. really not easy.. didnt expect i could handle this much.. oh ya... there were 8 of us drinking.. =)

sent june home and she toh in the cab... lol. den i go home le... paiseh ar tang.. never see u back 1st.. u oso abit tired le..

reached home around 3... slpt around 4... alarm disturbed me at 6... den woke up at 9 for training... seh ar really seh.. and yes.. my demoralising form is back again officially... 30m arrow can drop off arrow rest and eat grass... someone please kill me. (or help me)

seh liao

my gold badge is finally here! i got gold 1mth ago in scc competition.. =)

*u know i'll always be there for u.. =)*

Wednesday, January 13, 2010 { 10:54 PM }

hmm seriously i oso dono wat to blog about... life have been pretty normal this few days... the only major thing is,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE! tang... lol

I guess he had quite a unforgettable birthday mission today... goin to different classes, getting well wishes from different random people... and we even went to liting's class.. lol

let me see...training today was quite ok.. the old problem didnt come back.. thank god.. if not i really demoralised le... i thk to really see if its gone, is wait till this sat long distance le.. worse come to the worse i wont go for SP open liao.. which is like in 2weeks? damn!

oh ya tmr driving lesson at 4.30-5.30... sian man peak hour i thk.. many cars on the road.. nervous nervous... but i thk i can do it! =)
(i abit forgot the steps of driving liao.. die)

now then i remember this fri i got booked by my clique for an outing... today still keep ask the archery ppl train on fri train on fri... die liao.. lol
i'm still thinking.. if drink drink on fri night n reach home at 4am... next day training i confirm die 1 lor... sian!

Monday, January 11, 2010 { 10:39 PM }

wa lao sian la....... i'm really broke le.. really broke.

lim pushing for money.

3 other frens pushing for money.

mum pushing for money. haven even show her the bill. I'm so dead.

where i go and find 1.3k? pls tell me

pushing my limits to give her wat she want... in turn wat did i get? not gratitude.. not a word of thx.. not even anything.. and i'm in a load of shit. is it really all worth it?

Saturday, January 9, 2010 { 8:45 PM }

afew pictures about my cute little niece which i look forward to play with every week... =)

and she's photogenic..

at the party

ok this small litttle chair goes a long way... this was mine like 18years ago? now its her's.. =)

cute girl with my mum... running around hugging us..

lol her happy little morning smile...

this is my iphone wall paper! so sweet...

so young she already has such mesmerizing double eyelids...

pls... someone tell me she's not cute? lol!

{ 8:10 PM }

shit liao shit liao...

my arrow drop off arrow rest problem is officially back. 2 days before competition den like this. CUI

Friday, January 8, 2010 { 11:46 PM }

haix... today is like damn suay can? whole day not very smooth.. den training time my top n bottom limbs fix opposite.. haix! its the 1st time in my 3year archery career i did this kinda mistake.. slap me please.

shot like crap today.. only 225 points over 300... its like anyone can hit this score lor? my standard is about 270.. so wat is this? fuck.

and when i move the stand out to the carpark, the nail scratch pass my leg... n it bled. fuck.

last but not least, my hp bill finally is here... 30 overseas sms and total of 6min of talk time overseas... my bill is..................................... 121bucks.. pls kill me.
lucky i manage to intercept the bill.. =)

please don take me for granted... i entertain u, i play wif u, i care for u and say sorry... i really do mean it and it is not everyone have de. anything may change when it snaps

only my warm up so nice

the art work on my flesh

Thursday, January 7, 2010 { 10:43 PM }

hmm i must say frankly, US's service is superb! that time ordered from lancaster with a shibuya arrow rest but it didnt come in the 1st shippment.. see the inventory list included in the 1st package got no arrow rest so they never charge.. BUT! email them say i have ordered but its not delivered, they send out the arrow rest the next working day, on emergency post.. 2days its in SG ALREADY! nice service dudes.. =)

den dono wat is wrong with dad.. 1 week make 4 TIMES avocado dessert.. once a month is good.. now its like too over le la... i'm quite scared of it already.. pls!

ok now onto math UT.. gg man.. as usual my math is gone case de.. D+ i happy liao.. pls pls pls...

before going to driving, i wasted 2.5hours by idling my life away man! got more bo liao abit 1 or nt sia... sit at westmall arcade for 1.5hours looking at the different aunties catch the sweet... many aunty come n go, i'm still there lookin.. so pathetic..

and today was night driving.. ok was abit nerves, but soon i'm quite alright with it.. instructor only say my picking up abit not soomth.. cox my clutch position not very good.. jerk.. went one round up the cemetery area in cck.. den drove back to gombak carpark.. WOOTS! and its already up to gear 4... =)

today's communication is very very tiring man.. 2 person doing 5 person's work.. shagged me out.. it was not the best but i'm still quite happy with it.. =)
(n june is there to help me..)

tmr gonna do something i have never done be4 since start rp life... wear shorts in academic hours.. becox i got not enough track pants... -_-

oh ya.. i maybe goin to bangkok with those bros in class.. hope i can save enough money by then.. i still owe alot ppl money sia.. lol!

sweets anyone?

Wednesday, January 6, 2010 { 10:22 PM }

today my mood is sooooo damn bad... if i've offended anybody.. sorry.. =)
(maybe not enough sleep..)

ok let me talk about ytd's ut.. engineering design... i swear i dono what is half of the whole paper talking about.. i'm so hoping that i'll at least pass this shit.. but i'm quite happy the faci for engineering design never come for 2 weeks after i emailed him liao.. that old bastard...

still our mentor somemore.. never see before such a selfish n stuck-up faci before... we totally dono what sign is written on the problem statement, we ask him.. he say, find out urself.. i am not supposed to tell u...

WTF can? the whole class really dono.. never see be4 how to research? in e end can tell us this symbol is new.. just came out this year.. fuck ur mum..

what material can use, wat material cannot use oso never tell us... den we see other prototype from other class, wa kao! so many good stuff... HE ALL NEVER TELL US! all cannot use all cannot use.. fuck u.

for 2 weeks he never come, for 2 weeks straight i get As liao.. jeff gave me A.. ytd's grade came out.. raman oso gave me A.. pls don come back.. gimme the last 3 grading week happy happy can? don spoil my mood for ed.. the class mood too... relieve faci step in everybody so happy.. =)

today's training is shit.. totally shit.. still can miss target paper.. long long time never like this liao.. coming competition time den come like this... SIAN! don make my mental breakdown pls... =(

haix.. tmr math ut2.. i'm so gonna die.. like dono even a single shit.. hope can get at least a D? but this time abit hard liao.. pushing my luck.. and tmr after ut, i have driving.. at night! 8.30pm to 9.30pm... i'm so gonna be so damn freakin nerves.. i haven even get use to all this change gear, night driving liao.. DIE!

ok.. now for some pictires.. the 1st picture was biten yesterday bare hand... pain u noe..

the 2nd picture was biten this morning.. damn! through my sleeve also swell until like this... yao siu.. her biting skills improve liao... thhhhhanks ar june jie... =x

day 1 bite

day 2 bite (different location)

Sunday, January 3, 2010 { 8:53 PM }

30/12/09
ok let me talk about my 1st driving lesson.. which is on 30th dec 11.30am... ok this is the very first time i get to drive a real car.. and its manual.. now i'm beginning to doubt myself if i would ever make it and pass this manual test..

The 1st time i was so nervous behind the wheel.. and keep forgetting what i should do next... the instructor thought me the basic components of the car and how to operate it.. then off to teach me half clutch biting point and gear one... he added U-turn into the lesson too...

After that we still have like 10minutes cox i have no questions, he ask me to move onto gear 2... wa kao.. panic liao. slow down and end of the day....

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2/1/10
hmm next is saturday training.. i came at like 1230.. setup and go shoot.. it was like rain stop rain stop... and we carried on shooting.. yea i am soaked... we did 1 round of scoring 18m 3in1 vertical face for the upcoming competition... shit can? my score is like only 263.. coach florence say its very very very bad.. yes i noe is bad.. haix. and she had a little chat with me... hmmmmmm

rush home and bathe, den went out to meet boon, zhi guang n gang at PS.. had cafe cartel dinner den headed over to pool fusion... so my very surprise, when the lift open i saw TANG... omg! so coincidental.. i was still thinking how to meet up with them... cox zhiguang book me 1st.. so the RP gang i have no choice on their outing.. lol... but thank god.. he knew my plight.

after that went drinking with boon they all... had like 4 cups.. sian tmr morning 8.30am i still got driving.. and i only reach home at 4am... slpt for like 3hours i must wake up n drive... damn!

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3/1/10
for driving... i did alot alot alot of mistakes... the instructor say: you so forgetful and tense how to learn driving? haix.. shag liao... should i change to auto? I learn stepping up gear, onto main road and intermediate braking..

the instructor dont wan me to see the RPM meter so he covered up my whole dashboard... i cant even see what speed am i on... he only ask me to listen to the engine sound... when steady already, he removed the cover... WOW. i'm driving at 65km/h? den i start to kan chiong...

stop at traffic light its a slight hill... den i kan chiong cars behind me... my biting point wrong... the car stalled... haix... damn. move up a little the instructor took over... so lousy can? i seriously need some help... no mood for training no mood for competition liao...

HELP!
for driving...