hmmm let me talk abou ytd 1st... Yup its raining again so no shooting.. anyways i also didnt bring my bow, just stretch band training. then so bored, we went to watch soccer pol-ite RP vs NYP. heard from them NYP got national player and is their captain somemore.. so it'll be hard on RP!
RP scored the 1st goal, n NYP equalised soon after. RP score the second goal in the 2nd half, and on the 86th min of the game, NYP equalised... oh man RP was so close to win.. a few more mins to game end. and NYP was damn rough lor.. RP 7 players injured but NYP got 1 concussion, fainted. Then must call ambulance come. so paiseh..
Yup we got our pol-ite tee and black team RP jacket today.. woots! wanted this for quite some time.. although i'm quite not very happy when i got it, cox some1 didnt get it and i cant do anything about it... =(
Today i was so damn late for training.. gotta do some errands in e morning.. reach there, setup bow, straight go out scoring liao... so tired... and my form is like shit.. totally. i didnt have time to eat breakfast n lunch cox i was late... was so damn hungry the whole day.. only got to eat my first meal at 5.30pm... argh!
and i got my soma stand today... aunty pat and george loh came down.. quite shock to see george.. today ranking i got 2nd place... 3 point away from 1st place which is elwin... at IKO i won 1st round and gave up the rest.. cox ir eally cant take it le...
damn hardcore lor them... totally no break.. finish 60m, move board n go back shoot. no sighter, no rest. finish 50, same thing to 40m. totally no break. 1st time i shoot like this sia. ass. wonder tmr how am i gonna shoot... fuck.
i n spoilt coach's stretch band... broke it into 2 pieces... sorry coach... n i also played with her electronic whistle... lol. guess she must be wondering why am i so playful..
walking in e rain. not caring about anything.
soccer in e rain
rp's goal
at 80min
team rp, black n white
Friday, October 30, 2009{ 10:33 AM }
i'm sooooo disappointed or some sort of shag... cox ytd when i was deleting messages, i didnt know clicking all and deleting will also delete the sms saved in my sim card... so, all sms are gone. not a even a single one left. sms i saved since 080607 till now, all gone. so i'm quite pissed of at that.
haix. maybe its made for me to del everything and not remember de good stuff.
then early this morning, mum create trouble for me again. i said what the hell are you saying... den she say you then go to hell la. den i said back, dont anyhow shoot when you dont know anything. knn
pissed off
Thursday, October 29, 2009{ 11:06 PM }
hmmm... today change team........ i quite like my this team i would say. teaming with andrea is better then i expected... must not judge a cover by its books... sorry i didnt help out much at 1st 2 meetings... but start my usual cannon at meeting 3.. the w15n eugene is coming back.. i hope.
ya then this aunty june is suuupppeeerrr clever... leave class can forget her adaptor 1... den must make me go alllll e way to w1 to pass to her... den run all e way back to w6 to meet farhan... n farhan is there nagging... where is eugeeennneeee.... lol sorry!
and today got no target paper lor so pathetic.. we gotta use the air-rifle target paper which is so damn tiny.. so hard to focus. ya let them laugh at my form and my jerk the whole 2 hours... ass! and 1st time i went inside the board compound area.. i didnt noe there's a drain sia.. i threw e ropes in.. lol
dinner at e1, den went to trcc to accompany my dear farhan to see his girl... slack from 730 to 9pm... ya i wrote a 428 word rj, cox i'm too bored... den help farhan ask the girl to offer farhan send her home, cox farhan don dare... -_-
but in e end she rejected. so home sweet home.. =)
anyways with them nowadays its getting very fun ar... shoot them like no need money.. just shoot. den in turn they oso shoot me back... like don shoot will die... in hokkien, "che si soot". lol. ok la its quite fun.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009{ 9:34 PM }
oh man... its raining and i go to school for nothing today.. nv go class, but training time, it rained. so i do bow training and refletch my arrows... so bored... and today's polite is ITE vs SP for soccer... i was all the way like, GO ITE!!!! elwin was like ehhhhh... -_-.
dinner was super fun man.. getting very good with them liao... they're e joy when it comes to training at school like.. so fun! making fun of yijing, bro bro wif bjorn, elwin, nic and not the least farHAN! motivated him to get the girl's number.. so funny.. lol. than at night he is like sms-ing me, thanks ar bro... haha
tmr is communication day... hope this would be good.. and i'm having competition this coming sun.. god bless me man.. i'm totally not ready for it...
anyways i'm not like my mum... although i wanna think like her but in this era, i cant. i ain't saying break-up couples can never get back together again after one of them have been in other relationships... all it is, is it takes the right feelings...
getting back tgt after break-ups is not looking at the past.. its looking at the future.. some people need to see the outside world before knowing that what they had once, was better... we learn after each set backs... it may be different this time, who knows?
i can clique with anyone.. is only see i want or not... if i want, i'm capable of many different styles of attitudes, jokes, styles. if i dont, all u'll see is only my black face and constantly being ignored by me... ask me 10 things, i only reply 2.
wat i can say is the bros at archery is making me smile again and bringing back the joker in me... we had a good time... =)
{ 11:47 AM }
An email from my mum which i have just read. An email without a subject, this is what i should expect.
When you are younger, we still have topics to talk and communicate more often, but as you grow older, you have estranged from me and keep to yourself. I hate those ugly words that come from your mouth frankly speaking. That puts me off from talking to you. I noticed that you will only cry or woe when your close ones have passed away or not around anymore but will not put in effort to love them when they are around. I think I will receive the same style too.
Maybe I was wrong to put you in child care. Nevermind, its all past. I don't want my kids to be spoilt like those from rich families if you look around you. I want you to face the life's reality. If you don't study hard, you will end up having a hard life later in life. Nothing is for free in this world. Bear in mind. We cannot be always there to supply you as we will get old and sick and will spend a lot of money.
After you enter army, you have to stand on your own 2 feet. No more allowance from us anymore. You have to earn your own money. We will only support you until your poly but if you can go uni, by all means go ahead and we will try to support you otherwise you will be like your ah gu, to study and work at the same time. Grap whole of the opportunity now and study as much as you can while we are still able to support you. As for your driving, we will support you for 1 testing only. More than that, you have to pay yourself. Your sis paid for her own driving lessons.
For your info, I will not accept Wendy even if you managed to win her back. I cannot accept the fact that she is having a lot of relationship and treat as nothing is wrong.
I always pray GOD is with you and guiding you along.
This officially ends the chapter of being with the chiam family.. and i totally have no idea how my mum got so much info. i never share with her bad stuff.
oh well.. maybe its god's way of letting me gain experience and growing up.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009{ 9:25 PM }
this is like my mood now.. sitting alone at the edge, filled with despair
i have taken the gamble against all odds and against all advices. because i believe in it and striving to achieve my dream.
But, I have lost the gamble.
Monday, October 26, 2009{ 6:33 PM }
I read this in a poster in the BBDC FTT room... meaningful i would say.. totally my kinda logic.
SERENITY The future belongs to those who believe in their dreams.
Well... i very well believe in my dreams and have the confidence to achieve it. But some things i totally have no control. Like, feelings of another person's heart.
Doing my best and making epic sacrifices in this situation is totally not enough and deemed useless. *i feel so useless, feel like a total idiot*
{ 8:35 AM }
nightmare, didnt sleep well at all.. damn tired.
maybe she's right. backin off
Friday, October 23, 2009{ 9:59 AM }
i read this quote somewhere.. hmmm...
Everyday we tell ourselves we're better off without each other, but then every morning I wake up and realize I love you more then the day before.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back...don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours!
No matter how many times I get hurt because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have a hundred reasons to leave you, I'll look for that one reason to fight for you.
You asked me what was wrong. I answered: Nothing. Then I turned around and whispered: Everything. .
Thursday, October 22, 2009{ 8:27 PM }
hmmm... today should be a better day at class i guess... NO CALCULATIONS! unlike physics, engineering design and math II... all calculations, driving me NUTS! i seriously hate calculations man.. turns me off...
and today somebody is very pretty lor... cant get enough of it.. lol. oh well... too bad i guess...
eugene tang never come to school today, so my team is short of 1 person... so JUNE came to my team to join us as her team only got 2 person, including her... eh not my decision hor.. is MR chen's.
and as usual both of us make a great team... my thinking and her skills. not bad i would say, only i'm abit tired to go out full force to make it a splendid one. each team gotta do 3 emails, me and june got assigned the email written to IG members...
anyways today i'm damn ke lian lor.. my kahki all never come and my old sem dudes went to lunch le i guess... so kind of june to ask me to eat with she n her kahki...
then went to causeway point to source for materials for my new customising DIY project... the materials are not cheap man.. damn. i'm broke..
Wednesday, October 21, 2009{ 8:44 AM }
relatively i'm tired.. although i'm nt very keen to go out with my new friends at w34p to watch movie, but i still went yesterday.. movie is quite ok, watched IMAGINE THAT.. story line abit draggy, but its quite good and meaningful.. rate it 3.5 ba.
andrea's gf would be more entertaining with her cold jokes i would say.. 1st time i hear soooooooo many cold jokes...
I NEED SOME MORALE BOOSTER! battery critically low... time for some recharge. lol *but where to recharge?*
June's spectacles
Monday, October 19, 2009{ 10:13 PM }
disappointed
Sunday, October 18, 2009{ 10:10 PM }
ok man.. i'm totally worn out and tired out these few weeks... leavin house at 7 and reaching home at 10.30 at night almost everyday... i seriously don have enough time.. those who have too much, please transfer some to me ar...
I need more time to train, more time to SLEEP, more time to study for my ftt i haven even open the new book. more time to do my own stuff, more time to be with frens n ppl i care for. my mood seriously have been quite bad these 4 days... i have no idea why. maybe i'm tired.
anyways our dear captain of rp archery here have the total same interest as me... i was shock when i heard wat he gotta say at our dinner wif bjorn at thai express yesterday night... totally. So the 3 of us trained again today.. i got the highest score even though i shot across board cox of shit ground... i'm very good at this ok.. lol.
anyways girl girl is sick today... so i wont get to see her this week... and i'm vex enough so pls don keep nagging at me... i cant take it man. especially when i'm tired and quiet. and i scolded our coach again just now... i very tired alr still nag nag nag scold scold scold.
that should be around there ba.. i seriously cant think of anything now already.. i'm trying but nothing comes up!!! i hate this feeling.
ciao
i prefer my hairsyle after wearing my shooting hat.
Thursday, October 15, 2009{ 9:57 PM }
ahhhh... i'm so so so damn tired... sorry i havent been updating regularly n content have been very vague... ok la done alot of training these few weeks with the rp dudes.. i guess i'm starting to get the feeling back... god bless.. =)
i dono wat is happening to mum these days u noe. knn always small thing pick on me.. purposely bathe at the time i was suppose to as a routine... everyone also know if i'm late i have to take mrt. if i take mrt, i wont get to sleep. if i dont get to sleep, MY DAY SUCKS! a sleepy me is a grouchy me... my mood will be bloody bad.
and please. you don thk u're my relative, mum or dad, i must bloody follow wat u all want ok? knn. sorry you knock on e wrong door. i'm eugene chiam. what i reallly want, you all do NOT have the ability to change nor disagree.
there is one person who can make me change my mind or sway my stand. but it AINT YA'LL. and please bloody stop commanding me stuff. hard way never ever work on me. persuade me to do stuff, not command. the harder u come, the harder i will fight back. make me understand, if i do, i will work your way. you wont want me against ur stand.
and yes... the puzzle which i waited for 3 long months is finally here... my missing 2 peices.. before this, i only had 998 peices... now its 1000! just see who will complete it with me.. =)
I got my jersey printed with my name behind today... and i'm very satisfied with it... although the font looks abit weird ar.. but who cares! the very first official jersey i have with my name on... the next item i would wish for, is Team Republic's black jacket with my name on. only meant for SCHOOL TEAM!
2 missing puzzle peices
my very own jersey
Monday, October 12, 2009{ 10:13 PM }
this phrase inspire me the most. i was awed.
Question: Why am i so different from others?
Answer: Why..... do you have to be like others?
=)
Sunday, October 11, 2009{ 9:29 PM }
today is a very very special day... not because i have new stuff to play with.. but my coach mr lim come to rp training grounds to pass me stuff and coach me... should be me de la.. but ended up i'm e less... ASS
boss came very very late today.. as usual rubber time... anyways i just learned a new skill yesterday.. to cut arrows.. den mr lim came around 1230... we went to him to get my stuff den he talk talk talk tuning... den we go back shoot, he talk talk talk bareshaft n form... tiller height n stuff... den checked all their bows... ya he nv tune, i'm suppose to TUNE ALL OF THESE LATER! ass...
he say nigel release nonono good... can pull 72inch bow and got alot of power... elwin good release but bad bow arm.. simon cock release and think he knows tuning but actually its nt all correct.. he told me on e phone later on... bjorn quite alright but bow setting sucks..
and for me! i'm a little short in strength, do my follow thru as needed, hand must be more linear with my throat... and have the best bow sound... very chrisp... =) i put alot of effort into tuning my own stuff ok... and urs too.. only perfect is accepted. =) he say i shot last time better... den walk to board, he's bloody shock with my grouping... he said, bloody hell, u struggle still can shoot like this ar? amazing. my score (X, X, X, X, X, 10) for 50m.
ok i'm gaining abit of my form back slowly slowly... i remember 1 phrase... U SCARED FOR WAT!!!!! lol this is ringing in my head when i'm aiming...
and please lor.. lim is selling stuff to them so cheap... I'M JEALOUS!!!! ASS. den coach them more den me... check their bow nv check mine... haix.. my coach u noe... lol. lunch at kfc, talk talk very long, den went back safra jurong for dinner with girl girl... =)
Friday, October 9, 2009{ 12:49 PM }
its weird calling someone eugene, by eugene. which is me... i feel so much like calling myself, but the fact is i'm calling someone else... a very weird feeling huh...
Thursday, October 8, 2009{ 8:19 PM }
group discussion = good
team work = good
team clique = good
after lunch mood = very bad
feeling tired = damn alot
feel sian = hell yea
presentation = very bad
feel like talking? = not even abit
conclusion, is my day good? NO.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009{ 10:28 PM }
today is really not a very good day as i expected and which june told me will be... =x lol. maybe because its math ba.. i really hate math you know.. i really need to start my engine liao.. relight the spark in how i performed in w15n... best presenter and elite in the class... now i'm like just another normal member of the class... nonono. this cannot continue!
one more stupid thing is, morning i just simply walked to the water cooler to drink some water before going into class in e morning.. my instincts guided be the same way i walked back to W15N way.. i pushed open the door and everyone looked at me.I ENTERED WRONG CLASS TODAY!
i didn know y and didn look at them face to face. new faci and she asked my name... so i said, EUGENE, CHIAM. den i looked at the name list faci is showing on projector... no1 i know.. den i look around, OH SHIT@!!! wrong class den i walked out. SO PAISEH!
i'm starting to get annoyed on the toilet placing already you know? at w15, the toilet for male is on the right, female on the left.. i'm totally too used to it. now come w34, male is on e left, female on the right... 3 days into this new block, i almost pushed open the female toilet door 5 TIMES!!! goodness.
1st time training at scc for me with the bunch of rp bros.. quite a nice experience and a hardcore 1... =)
Tuesday, October 6, 2009{ 10:02 PM }
today was a better day for me, for sure... although engineering design is quite shit cox everyone knows i suck at drawing and is only capable of drawing stick man.. i dont take art and dnt at secondary school, but fnn... lol..
beginning of the day tot it will gonna be a very damn dull day... i tot the girl sitting beside me will be very unfriendly and wont talk much, but to my surprise she's quite alright... guess i have de 1st good friend in w34p liao... =)
she did most of the writing, i did the thinking part... oh ya, and got free sweet supply... lol. not bad you know, got choice somemore... the next 4weeks in engineering design will be not as bad as i predicted ba... =)
hmm hope tmr the range is ok to shoot already man, if not will be so bored..
anyways talking back to sunday's dinner, small girl is soooo cute leh.. no word can express the amount of it... she was playing with me and she gave me this very cheeky face... so as usual i used my finger to touch her flat n cute nose... she laughed, so i laughed too... catching me off guard, she used her tiny little finger to touch my nose back tooo! haha.. this girl ar.. getting sooo cheeky.. =)
Monday, October 5, 2009{ 9:47 PM }
oooohhhhh today is the very 1st day of me in W34P... guess i gave them a not very impression... cox i didn do much or can say any work... whole day play chain rxn and mahjong... played 3 full pot..
i was quite hungry by lunch time because i forgot to bring my bread mummy will apply every morning for me... actually i purposely.. cox my bag really got no place to put... got many extra things to squeeze in.. oso low on funds... so i skipped my breakfast...
got to know many of my classmates stay in jurong west and pioneer area.. very good! next time got kaki go home with me liao... but i went to train wif rp ppl today.. who knows some1 nv msg me when going to meet them time.. so i was late i guess.. playing mahjong all alone in class...
but! we didnt get to shoot... cox of some rules reason.. hmm no problem.. back training... my bag really weighed 9.8kg ytd nite i weighed it... with my lappy in it... cox no hand carry... had talks with nigel, elwin n yijin... nice people i would say... had dinner with them... today is also the 1st day i went home so late from rp man... the night scenery oso quite nice...
leaving time, saw things i'm very very not comfortable looking at... so i picked up my pace and left... i can do nothing but to accept it... so stop gripeing about it... tmr will be a better day ug.. =)
and please stop calling other people UG, cox they are eugene, not ug... UG this acronym is created by eng yi wen in 2004 for eugene chiam. please respect this name. i aint joking.
as usual you will have no idea what i've done to dote, u. above my very own comfort n welfare
Sunday, October 4, 2009{ 4:22 PM }
haha i stole this from somewhere.. very romantic..
when you finally wanted to do something, you were too late.. but late is better then never! =)
watch it if you have the free time.. watch the whole thing ar... dont stop halfway
{ 1:49 PM }
ahhhh... i'm so bloody full now. today church is having its one year once fun fair so mum bought duck... its forever so nice i tell you. so i guai guai come home after training to have lunch with her... and as usual thanks mr chang for sending me back home.. =)
lol our bunch of "country club" archers is getting funnier man... with mr chang's famous bunch of jokes and now have mslui vs ug... haha.. it all started with a stupid angel quiver, den escalated very quickly with her x10 being shot down by me... haha.. so now mslui talk to me like i owe her $6000 and i will accept it or shoot back.. mr chang and weiliang see show... LOL. funny if u witness it urself, i guess
ooh man.. tmr start school le... i'm so not into it now i tell you.. totally no one i know.. and there is someone who goes by the name of eugene too... i predict ppl will call me "CHIAM" man.. i hate people calling me that. so like my dad.
haix about me shooting, gone case can? totally not worth saying liao.. shooting without a purpose... as in no score, no form. also dono shoot for wat..
and sian you know? i see the ftt book so thick, i dont even feel like touching it leh... but ftt is only 22days from now.. die die DIE! i need some motivation man.. damn lack of it.
but! later i will be getting to see my cute little neice and beloved sis.. =) so fun you know? hold her little hand and she will pull you here, pull you there... and she knows how to call me le... she should call ah gu (uncle in hokkien). but she calls me, guuuuuuuu.... lol so cute you see! she's growing up so fast you know.. means i'm getting old. oh man
Saturday, October 3, 2009{ 5:45 PM }
wow... morning i was quite kan chiong... 1st time seating for a driving theory test... and before the test, i booked a practise slot.. i actually tot i will be able to try out other questions as there are 10 booklets for practise... den i suddenly hear the preciding instructor say for private candidates u will only be able to do number 1 booklet.. no matter how many times u come...
wa kao can.. waste my money and make me more nerves... scared cox got 10 booklets, i only tried 1... so i'm clicking the same answers i did 2 days ago... so boring.. and ya 100% right.. finished in 15minutes... cox its a REPEAT!
so i have to rot for 45minutes before my actual test starts... quite nerves.. cox alot ppl around me oso nerves... -_-. ya i tend to worry on new things i haven try be4 de.. so my life is very stressful, i guess.. 10mins into the test i see ppl walking out.. so fast! i see their screen, FAILED! den i more kan chiong... finished mine in 16mins, submitted and hoped for the best... YES I PASSED!
den i went downstairs to book a FTT date... now got new law must apply for PDL den can book FTT lor.. wanna con my money.. cox QUEUED for the PDL... so looooooonnnggggg...... yea my ftt will be on 26/10.. 23days from today... hope for the best ba.. =)
ok for my GPA for semester 1... ya i did pretty well for the first 1/3 of the semester by looking at my UTs and daily grades... but slack and mental WRONG... so ended up with 3.0... damn! gotta work harder liao... hope i get good classmates! =)
(now then i understand the amount of stress and joy of taking and passing driving stuff.. i gave much too little support back then, i guess... learning the mistakes i once made.)
Friday, October 2, 2009{ 8:42 PM }
ahhh.. damn disappointed, didnt get to eat the chicken rice i planned to eat.. so sian.. then me and weiliang went to HTNS@BB to support ms lui and shayne.. wa lao shayne got people to support liao lor no need us de.. lol...
as expected, ms lui is female 1st and shayne is male 1st... total sweep man... then wat i see from shayne's new stab, not very nice really... like very thick and VERY PLAIN... real. the colour matching abit wrong.. dono wat the manufacturers are thinking man..
After the shoot, ms lui brought me and weiliang to NUS chunkie monkey to have our dinner... not bad i would say... thanks ms lui for the treat! =)
and ya... my mood aint very good today also... haix.. wake up man wake up... anyways i got my new class for 2nd semester already... W34P.. weird combination.. and i'm having my test tmr morning... wish me luck! =)
i'm posting a pic i just got from sis that time went swimming with them at SRC... ok la abit unglam i know.. lol
Thursday, October 1, 2009{ 6:09 PM }
ahh... my mood is soooooooo bad these few days... and the osim massage chair have become my best friend these few days... keep visiting it... and took my nap on it somemore today... nice! =) so long i never take afternoon nap liao..
practise today was fine... i book 4 times, i only turn up 1 time... damn waste money you know... haix.. i'm so broke.. today i got 95% i guess... die at places when they ask me which sign is a warning sign, one white stripe on the road is what and other rubbish... need to brush up on this area liao... cox sat is my btt!
anyways weiliang and the bloody junior keep saying i'm late i'm late... ya la i'm late.. paiseh ok... lol. like what i told my rp clique.. meet family can late, meet friends can late, meet buddies can late........ but meet girlfriend cannot late.... thats my personal motto.. =)
video call wif ping ytd nite... she not go there work lor... is go there shopppppping! so spree somemore... and she say the stuff is damn cheap... i need SHOES!!!!
