Name: Eugene
School: Republic
Age: 20 and counting

About you: Having a total mind of my own. Few can penetrate, only one can manipulate.

Theory: Life without you must go on, but life with you would be perfected

Fact: Caring and doting on the people I love, in my own special way. =)

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 { 10:13 PM }

i seriously dono wat to type already... not in the mood to think of anything.. i only know i didnt sleep well yesterday nite... turn turn till 4 slp, 6wake cox raining... my eyes bloody wide cant close.. and my form is getting more and more shitty each day... needa stop shooting to get my mind right..


didnt wanna talk much today... moodless + tired + muscle pain = a quiet me
i'm a relatively talkative person... it requires a major thing to make me shut up...
maybe depending on talking to who ba...


anyways i'm still eating shaker fries today for dinner... why? cox my bros from rp took the trouble to keep the powder for me when they did not use it last time... =)


haix... "wo cheng de heng xin ku..." i'm very tired on holding the shield up.. i really need some support... someone i can rely on... someone i can hide to... someone to pat me to a good sleep i so long have lost... someone to tell me: its alright, i'm here for you..

Tuesday, September 29, 2009 { 11:03 PM }

oh man... actually oso dono y i type oh man... life as usual, go training, go home... my 1st set of fita 900 is shot today... quite crap though... 239, 251, 277.

60m 239 wth u tell me... "leh loong" 3 for $10 dollar ar.. so bloody lousy.. got hit 3 point somemore.. crap man.. only 40m more like it.. but still alot of room to imrpove.. only 767. where got enough? not even top 5 i tell you..

ya thats all.. so sian

Monday, September 28, 2009 { 10:17 PM }

Sunday, September 27, 2009 { 8:38 PM }

ARGH!!!! I FEEL LIKE EATING SOMEONE!

{ 2:58 PM }

i'm SORRY miss lui... haix. i'm damn guilty now you know... i spoilt one of her x10 arrows... the arrow insert is meant to deflect a hitting arrow right? this time is too direct already.. after that i saw right in the middle of the nock, in the groove, got a hole... and her insert cracked her shaft... yup the arrow is out of service liao... without the insert, it'll be a robin hood case... arrow directly hit into another arrow...

i'm so sorry....

my score is like shit leh.. i got no bloody idea how i robinhood her arrow... shot 2 sets of 30m, 80cm 6x6, 5 ring scoring format... 308 and 296... atrocious, still got total 3 misses... 5 and below considered miss.

haix.. feeling damn down... i can see ms lui is damn sad her x10 spoil.. and its still quite new. i'm sorry...

my whole day mood spoil liao..

anyways i wanna explain about my unlimited lifetime warranty...
any gift from me will have this feaure.. it includes 24/7 hotline service, repair and replacement, no shipping charges and most of all, its free... can get my gift already not simple.. so it comes with this service.. =)

Saturday, September 26, 2009 { 5:41 PM }

i seriously dono what to say on myself you know... a failure in everything. my results from poly aint very good, scores at archery are going rock bottom, feel damn alone and losing things i love... nothing is going out right man...


i feel damn lousy now.. just now shot 4 sets... 3 sets got take score.. all 70m. 2nd set 252, 3rd 246, 4th 256. wtf scores are these? bloody disgrace you know.. my form is atrocious.. need some advice to fix it man... its missing something, i just know it. the feeling aint right.


today my mood aint very good... sorry to those i offended... my stupid character will start to blame everything around me when i crop up... so the best method is to, shut the fuck up eugene.
if you see me suddenly keep quiet and look damn serious, hmm ya.. its it.
i'm still learning to control people.. gimme some time..


training now at yjc is like dead town man... totally nobody.. only us 4 shooting.. oso dono how long never open these boards lor.. the target paper all turn yellow and stuff liao.. and 1st time i went to chong pang today.. quite like jw central man..


anyways i'll be going shanghai this year end... dec 12th to 22nd... for a little break and holiday, and to see my beloved cousin, ping... due to a peak period, my air ticket is CONFIRMED... so early..


and... i still dont feel very good.. my head still hurts.. abit. my strength and stability aint back yet.. shaking like an ass...


a little friend came to sit with me.. when i was resting. the bird just woont fly away you know

the open fields

Friday, September 25, 2009 { 5:58 PM }

i'm tired.. i'm damn damn tired.. dono how long can i hold it up... training is a total crap... losing all my form and scores.. i oso dono y.. what i only feel is pain... mental and physical..

pushed myself to shoot 144 arrows today.. mostly is on warm up board.. den i did something very stupid to it...

as usual our godfather doing his thing again to push for money and equipement... his sms to and from me...

him. remember always take my advise. I am always correct on your love life and choice of bow

me. we seehow.. Bow maybe can but love life i settle myself

him. Wake up bloody wake up. I do not want to control or be responsible for you. I just state my advise on you and her was right years ago. Bow too. So you better listen to me you idiot.

me. Me and her aint wat its like. Being naive and first time in love i aint experience and tend to be very very selfish and thinking on my part too much, neglecting her. It aint her. Me

him. Good then you jump down like that boy alone.

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stay on task eugene... pls stay on task.. you'll have to resist it... you dont have a choice.

{ 5:48 PM }

Jay Sean
DOWN

Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, down
Ooh (ohhh)

(Verse 1)
You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

(Bridge)
So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

(Chorus)
So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

(Verse 2)
Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

(Bridge)
So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,
(So why don’t we run away)

(Chorus)
So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

(Verse 3)
Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,
On the battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sending arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,
and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh

(Chorus)
So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

Thursday, September 24, 2009 { 9:24 PM }

i'm sorry with the un-updated post and unrelevant words on my this blog.. i'm still quite new in this and still dono how to edit alot of what the desinger put... and i dono where the hell my blogger bar went. -_-

{ 7:53 PM }

the night was hell man.. i totally cant get to sleep till 4am... tossing and turning on my bed from 11pm till 4. saw things i shouldn't see and know.. make myself more miserable only. at least now i know i aint the most special one. enough le

4am sleep den woke up at 730 becox of the rain.. damn i'm tired and my head still hurts... not to say my muscles... i'm struggling very hard to keep my form and quantity of arrows up... really cant take it liao.. keep closing up today.. i hate closing up man... but i dont have a choice i guess. only did 106 aarrows today.. really cant shoot out the last 2 liao.. quality is like dog food man. atrocious.

and i just found out i forgot to pay weiliang for my lunch... my fish beehoon became fish udon when i reach there... the noodle expand untillllllll............ my soup no more.. den so kind of micheal... ask about my illness... =)

sis, kor and little girl must be somewhere in malaysia waters by now i guess... they're on a cruise.. star virgo.. yesterday night me and mum sent them to habour front... always that cute little girl never fails to bring a smile to my face.. she really know how to make fun of me... laugh at me when i say wrong things or do wrong things... also listening and copying after what i say... so cute.. =)89

i must learn to take care of my own affairs le as no one will be here to double check or remind me stuff.. i must live well and be independant, then next time can take care of my other half (gf, fiance, wife).. not only her takin care of me.. =)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009 { 10:42 PM }

ok man... today is worse den yesterday i would say... yesterday nite's sleep is gooooodness man.. cox of my nose i cant get to sleep.. sore and running.. today only shot 72 arrows.. but i realise a new techniqe.. ok la not new, but new to me.. its better i would say.. but more taxing on my bow arm.. yesterday i shot without any feeling... today the feeling is pain.. absolute pain.

out of the 2 set, i did take 1 set's score... 30m: 319.. with the 40cm indoor 3in1 triple face 5 ring.. ok la quite an acheivement i would say.. the furthers i went so far.. pushing the limits, breaking new horizons...

ok la, for my actions u can hate me.. i deserved it.. but no need make until like this ba? anyways nt only ya'll 2 wearing same ma, still got other ppl also. i'm just merely choosing a alternative which i spend my money better and not making it a white elephant by not wearing it next time.. i'm looking at it broad based this time, not copying ya'll ok? get that in ur mind 1st. NOT COPYIN YA'LL. i only have 2 options, so i chose the one which serves me best. ya'll can have watever same stuff ya'll want.. dont turn the positive force into a negative 1.. pls

and people reading or those who will convey message 1, pls dont ka lan jiao wei... dont add or remove certain words from me to suit YOUR own agendas... i'm fully aware of it but not bring it up only.

those who dont feel comfortable reading on what i'm writing, simply hit the red X button on the top right of this browser and never come back. its is my dairy. only friends and those who caree are welcome.

every mother's son and daughter (means everyone) is bloody tellin and askin me to drop it.. i dono why am i bloody still hanging on.. got money earn meh? reputation will go higher? or will it benefit me in any way? all no leh... but den why still like this? i got no bloody idea neither.. its chemical.. maybe must take one step futher alr. no choice.88

fuckin makin me low in mood. only remembering the good stuff, not the bad.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 { 9:37 PM }

ok today is a very very bad day for me or can say my body... i didnt sleep well yesterday night and my flu is worsening... i should be in bed yesterday and today, but i still got myself out on both days for exercise... ytd swimming, today shooting.. and i'm proud to say i've shot 144 arrows today despite of my condition.. blowing my nose every 2 shot of arrows...
pushing the limits of what my body can do...
*life i only have one.. take it if u wish*

actually tot of playing badminton today also... but weiliang dowan.. so... lol. and i think i passed some of my viruses to him already.. poor guy..

anyways i swear i'm not going to help him anymore u know.. was damn dulan. got fucked 3 times in 2weeks.. one time for quiver. 2nd time for business.. ALL FOR HIS FUCKIN SALES! and cox of a few BUCKS, he come fuck me... sui la.. dont treat my help as free or worse, like dog food you know.. cox u know u'll get none, the next time.
its damn hard to get me to help u.. once u got it, treasure it or u wont get it ever again.

hope tomorrow will be better... cox i really feel very miserable. physically.. physically torturing myself..87

Monday, September 21, 2009 { 8:37 PM }

yea.. i'm down with slight flu again... whenever i'm really stressed up or something is troubling me, i tend to fall ill very easily.. if not u wont see me getting sick for a very very long time. guess its recent events plus the rain on sat... SICK!
*and nobody cares.. i guess*

Sunday, September 20, 2009 { 7:58 PM }

hmm training today quite hardcore again.. sian.. now quantity arrows and no quality.. the arrow anyhow fly.. hit board can liao. just needa get my mental right and strength up.. ya and i'm pushing the limits of what MY body can do.. as u all oso know i'm damn skinny type.. so strength is limited to how my body is built... like 2 tooth pick pulling a high poundage bow.. later snap now? lol...

ok to tell ya'll 1 very stuPID thing... i missed my test date. i tot it was on the 26th of sep.. BUT! it is on the 16th and i missed it.. WTF can? wasted 6bucks like this... goodness.. can i be more BLUR abit one? damn i really needa find myself a personal assistant... DAMN! no mood to write on liao.. spoil my mood.

haix.. ok la. shot 108 arrows today which is 3 sets. den went to aunt's place for lunch... today's dishes all my favourite.. the baked chicken wing which i ate 6 to my surprise.. and nice soup.. long time never drink already.. den i setup my laptop for them to video call with ping.. they haven seen her face to face yet.. since she flew to shanghai.. her mum and dad... ya i brought my bloody laptop to TRAINING... heavy man

den when i was configuring my laptop to their wireless, ping called to give me directions on phone... den the little girl wans my attention even though i was busy... haha... as ya'll know i dont like to be disturbed when i'm concentrating or very busy... lol ok la must curb my character abit.. so i just sayang her and continued with my stuff.. if last time i will ask the person to get lost... anyways she's scared of me when i wear sun glasses..

yup tmr we got a whole family outing again... and this time i suggested it.. =)
we're going to the club @ padang... SRC.. my mum and 2 aunts is their members.. go there to swim and to eat dinner... that place's swimming pool is cool man i tell u.. underground and warm pool.. with a large jaccussie section.. i've long wanted to bring my gf here with my family.. its an eye opener not opened to the public... so far only jiali came here be4 for lunch.. nth else.
see how ba.. got chance de..

anyways talk about yesterday Mr Chang's cold jokes.. ok la not say cold, quite funny oso... dan, weiliang, ms lui and i laugh until cannot stop... imagine chang saying all these jokes.. lol. we were talkin about freight and courier services.. about DHL, FEDEX and UPS. all expensive...
he can dont ever send by DHL.. we all tot was oh ok.. bad service or something.. den he said,
DHL= deliever halfway lost... (we all were, AHAHAHAHAHAH)
than he said FEDEX and UPS will never merge.. we tot ok.. maybe politics.. den he said,
FEDEX + UPS = FED-UP... (we all were, OMG! WAHAHAHAHAHA)
imagine chang saying all these... lol85

Saturday, September 19, 2009 { 9:01 PM }

OHHHHHH..... my mushroom is finally here... after bloody waiting for like 2 full months... AND! i bloody feel the effect of the mushroom.. actually i tot the difference will be so little that i wont feel a bloody thing... but actually quite alot.. proven by them and MS LUI too... =)
making my napecs limb with my inno slightly more perfect the feeling...

and i'm proud to say i've shot 180 arrows today.. which is 5 bloody sets.. highest acheived by me so far.. ya i'm weak so dont laugh.. also must see today raining ok... before lunch shoot 1 set 9-11, after lunch from 1-330, i shot 4 sets... 1-330pm rain again.. all run in.. left me this siao kia shooting in the rain alone... but heck man.. that set of 70m i hit 302... dig that. although i got phew a 4 and a 2...

i found out that force follow-thru does the job fine... so i may convert to this form.. but need a little training.. anyways if i set my mind to it and click without fear, how many arrows i oso can shoot man... fuck my mental.

i will continue to increase my daily quota of arrows being shot... but i got a test coming ahead... and I CANT BELIEVE I PUT IT ON A SAT! damn. i tot it was a monday.. fuck man. spoil all my training plan.. i cant believe i'm that BLUR

and ya... i got another lecture from Mr Chang again when he is fetching me and weiliang back to south west area... this time his face more serious man... scared liao.. ya its me again.. dono how to think... stupid u know..

then after that had a chat with weiliang after our dinner... ok so now i know more stuff... which is damn related to me.. so i guess i can put it down better.. it aint only me... its you too.. maybe ur principles and mine dont really meet... or i can say will NEVER meet. i dont plan to change this area of it.. it is a good trait of me...

once something is with me, it doesnt fuck me up, i might stick with it, for life. this is my theory... i dont like to change things... my black inno will always be MY black inno... no fuckin way i'll change it unless it fuck me up... like snap in my bloody face.. i may like new stuff, but i love my old stuff.. u noe? love is not equals to like. like is just an emotion, love is a feeling. no matter how wrong i'll be, let me get my mind straight, i will know who is really the one..

ya.. weiliang today just created 2 theories.. he oso join in the fun... he called it contact glue theory and harddisk theory... wanna know the full meaning, look for him ba.. hahaha.. but quite true oso..

Friday, September 18, 2009 { 9:54 PM }

ya i know my title is a little stupid.. cox i dono wat to write as my title for today.. quite bo liao and nothing to do...

it was raining almost the whole day today.. was suppose to be at ct to shoot today.. but rain so i decided to play my CS source.. shooting some bloody zombies... i love zombie maps.. and i havent play CS source for like 2years already? finally got the time and determination to start playing it...

after afew games i manage to drag myself out of the house.. intended to shoot, but still rain after that.. so talk talk.. abit sian la.. but i now know stuff i previously dont.. so dono is good or nt.. anyways none of my damn problem..

oh yeaaa... my mushroom is finally here... after bloody waiting for like 2 full months.. actually i dont think there'll be much effect when i use it, but still backside itchy.. so i got it.. =)

anyways the smoke today is terrible man.. sitting down just for a meal's time, i smell like i personally smoke already.. thats damn bad.. imagine eugene smoking? it'll be a sight man..

then on the small path leading to my block, today like "xing guang da dao" man... like award shows red carpet... the whole stretch of pathway is lit with candles... so romantic... lol.. but its not for romantic purpose man.. its for the ghost festival... but still... =)

yea i'm trying to change all my principles and laws.. so i call it the revolution.. change government.. bull shit must go.. this government stayed for full 20years man.. finally its time to change.. hope it'll be a good change.. not worse..

ya it'll always be me here.. until someone can really touch or move me ba.. but i highly doubt it.. if not it remains lockedDOWN.
*who knows?83*

Thursday, September 17, 2009 { 9:10 PM }

today's weather was damn perfect for shooting man.. cool breeze, dim sunlight, boards able to hold my arrows, a nice meal that came before it and my loyal companion.. my bow.. but one thing came very very wrong... ya all archers worse nightmare... bangalas coming to cut grass.. then we all must stop..

anyways today is the very first day i hit my quota of arrows i needa shoot.. and exceeded it by 4.. =)
eh for my kinda mental, its a feat ok... ya i know my mental is weak.. abit abit cannot liao.

and ya.. some people might call me weird again today... damn i'm merely just trying to be frenly for sure today... i just asked how do u click and shoot so fast? damn... give advice to a junior in archery will die is it.. need money meh? like u will crash one arrow after u tell me.. god damn! why are you people like this huh.. i seriously dont get it. u want my black face, fine...

everybody is asking me to be more friendly.. like my family, frens and stuff.. ya i'm trying, but i aint got a clue what is happening man.. can anyone please enlighten me? damn. ya i'm a late bloomer due to family background.. too protected and caged up in the past to learn everything first hand.. now i'm learning.. so it makes ME WEIRD? oh ok...

everything is going hay-wire in my life now.. is anything still working fine? if have any please let me know.. cox i feel damn alone.

Exercise for the day82
no. of arrows: 148
km jogged: 3.0km

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 { 7:08 PM }

after changing back to inno, i gained an advantage cox i'm used to the heavy gmx.. so inno is no problem for me to handle... BUT! coming in a lighter weight, the inno is very prone to wind shifts.. damn. previous days didnt have so much wind.. today the wind was quite substantial, and i am not stable at all.. goodness.. out of target paper.. needa do something man.. both bows got their own weaknesses.. oh well, just like human.. or like me.. lol

ok for the names of my bow,
my son: Celestial aka 小白
my daughter: Shadow aka 小黑

actually i only name my bows english names.. but got someone already gave now my son a chinese name, so i named my daughter too.. lol

anyways i think i'm geared up to be the bad guy in the family to discipline my cute little neice already... everytime girl girl naughty or dont do the things her mum wants, her mum (my sis) will say oh oh... u see later ah gu (me) scold ar...

even when i'm not around, sis will say like this.. lol. abit damn leh... later registered in her mind i'm the evil uncle... like those bedtime story books.. the evil uncle makes his neice the slave to clean the chimney and stuff.. hahaha...

ya like sunday i was eating my dinner and that little girl didnt want to eat hers.. so sis told her later ah gu scold... lol so i heard it and i MUST turn over and give that little girl a nasty little stare... oh man
*i think she knows i love her.. =)*

and shit it. the period of no good sleep is back... i cant get a good night's sleep every night this and last week.. so my mood will be a little affected in the day.. a tired me is a impatient me... i tend to flare up and think too much... sorry guys.. if i offended anyone of you.. =)

mum told me i sleep talk.. ok i was quite suprised when i heard it.. anyways i do sleep talk at times when in the day i'm really stressed or something is really bothering me.. last time still sleeping with sis, she told me i sleep talk too...

and i bugged her to tell me what was i talking... she actually didnt want to tell me.. but den she still did.. lol
when i heard what i said, i was like "ohhhhhhhhhhh........" haha no wonder she dont wanna tell me.. actually oso no harm one la.. she just dont want me to think..
*must remember the plaster theory!*81

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 { 8:31 PM }

Monday, September 14, 2009 { 7:40 PM }

this email is from my mum.. i guess she want to relate something to me...

i'm thinking like the professor, but things arent always as i think. there may be other explanation to something... being inside the problem, you tend not to see what you're really saying/doing.. you are clouded in your mind and cant see the truth in another light..

I seriously need to believe in god and in faith... i'm too sure about what i think and reason out is always correct and things will never change or take a turn... it'll need to change

if you have time, read the following email.. =)

Professor : TEAL
Student : RED


> > The professor stops pacing. 'Science says you have five
> > senses you use to
> > identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever
> > seen Jesus?'
> >
> > 'No sir. I've never seen Him'
> >
> > 'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'
> >
> > 'No, sir, I have not.'
> >
> > 'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your
> > Jesus or smelled your
> > Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
> > Christ, or God for
> > that matter?'
> >
> > 'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'
> >
> > 'Yet you still believe in him?'
> >
> > 'Yes.'
> >
> > 'According to the rules of empirical, testable,
> > demonstrable protocol,
> > science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to
> > that, son?'
> >
> > 'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my
> > faith.'
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> > 'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing
> > as darkness?'
> >
> > 'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation.
> > 'What is night if it isn't
> > darkness?'
> >
> > 'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not
> > something; it is the absence of
> > something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
> > light, flashing
> > light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing
> > and it's called
> > darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
> > define the word. In
> > reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
> > to make darkness
> > darker, wouldn't you?'
> >
> > The professor begins to smile at the student in front of
> > him. This will be a
> > good semester. 'So what point are you making, young
> > man?'
> >
> > 'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical
> > premise is flawed to start
> > with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'
> >
> > The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this
> > time. 'Flawed? Can you
> > explain how?'
>>
> > 'You are working on the premise of duality,' the
> > student explains. 'You
> > argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
> > God and a bad God.
> > You are viewing the concept of God as something finite,
> > something we can
> > measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It
> > uses electricity and
> > magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood
> > either one. To
> > view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the
> > fact that death
> > cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the
> > opposite of life, just
> > the absence of it.'
> >
> > 'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students
> > that they evolved from a
> > monkey?'
> > 'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary
> > process, young man, yes,
> > of course I do'
> > 'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes,
> > sir?'
> >
> > The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as
> > he realizes where
> > the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.
> >
> > 'Since no one has ever observed the process of
> > evolution at work and cannot
> > even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are
> > you not teaching
> > *your opinion*, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
> > preacher?'
> >
> > The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until
> > the commotion has
> > subsided.
> >
> > 'To continue the point you were making earlier to the
> > other student, let me
> > give you an example of what I mean.'
> >
> > The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in
> > the class who has
> > ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks
> > out into laughter.
> >
> > 'Is there anyone here who has ever *heard* the
> > professor's brain, *felt* the
> > professor's brain, *touched or smelled* the
> > professor's brain? No one
> > appears to have done so. So, according to the established
> > rules of
> > empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that
> > you have no
> > brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you
> > have no brain,
> > how can we trust your lectures, sir?'
> >
> > Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
> > student, his face
> > unreadable.
> >
> > Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.
> > 'I guess you'll
> > have to take them on faith.'
> >
> > 'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact,
> > faith exists with life,'
> > the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing
> > as evil?'
> >
> > Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course,
> > there is. We see it
> > everyday. It is in the daily example of man's
> > inhumanity to man. It is in
> > the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the
> > world. These
> > manifestations are nothing else but evil.'
> >
> > To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir,
> > or at least it does
> > not exist unto itself. Evil is simply *the absence of God*.
> > It is just like
> > darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
> > the absence of
> > God.
> >
> > God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens
> > when man does
> > not have God's love present in his heart. It's like
> > the cold that comes when
> > there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is
> > no light.'

Sunday, September 13, 2009 { 8:00 PM }

damn.. i'm damn tired today partially of mental and physical..

country club mode again in training today... changing form again i guess.. den after training after we pack finish our stuff, i got a lecture from both Ms Lui and Mr Chang... they're like quite serious and i oso can feel the seriousness.. haix.. i'm sorry..

people break up and people get together everywhere around the world, everyday.. why am i looking at it like its such a big fuck? haix.. i just dont know why.. maybe i have a total different concept about whats mine and whats not ba...

once i've started something and that thing is mine, i have a concept that it'll always be mine... perhaps i have not seen enough of this kinda life where something important can be rotated and passed around.. i never understand and accept this kinda life.. ya just call me naive.. striving for perfection in a world which will never be perfect..

and yes people have been calling me skinny and weird... so wat? tell me whats the big fuck? under the details of weird, the term different and special comes in... i'm different doesnt mean i'm weird... or i'm weird means i'm special?

i can tell you i aint your regular "eugene" you find perhaps a dozen in your facebook account... if you dont know how to appreciate, then please fuck off. i aint entertaining this kinda assholes. those who knows me WELL, knows what am i really worth. for those of you who ACT like you know me, please think again or please FUCK OFF!

dont treat my good will like dog food. people want also may never ever get.78




ping's apartment's view in china


her video call conversation with our little neice..

my beloved sis and lovable neice..

Saturday, September 12, 2009 { 10:23 PM }

Thursday, September 10, 2009 { 10:07 PM }

well.. after the ordeal i had hours ago, i'm left with goldfish eyes for the whole day today... damn i'm dead tired.. but i promised to shoot.. so... hahaha...

although i didnt have any tiny bit of mood to shoot today, but i noticed that my form was slightly better from days before i had this ordeal.. perhaps when i'm not thinking too much abit all these form stuff, my mind is more stable... cause i dont care

lol even weiliang say, your eyes like this, how to shoot... go home early la today.. haha thank god man.. anyways after testing wnw and hoyt bows, i can say that i prefer wnw's... although hoyt more style, but wnw's feeling is much better.. we're too used to strong feedback le.. hoyt like no feeling.. high price to pay for this lesson..

and ya.. bad habit.. damn bad.. due to bad mood i didnt go jogging.. damn! anyways my calfs ache like hell.. damn man.. needa exercise more.. tmr DIE DIE MUST go swimming.. i dont care man.. perhaps going pub at night.. sat's training will hay wire man.. "mah bo mah bo"...

anyways i really wanna thank mr chang.. he really understands and talk senses into me.. maybe its his way of saying that convinces me... the content i already know myself, people have been nagging nagging at me the same bloody stuff.. but i guess its down to how you present and your tone.. to capture your audience... =)

my archery life is really going into revolution man.. literally everything is changing.. my equipements, mindset, form, people i train with.. and one this definately changed. this is the sport which brought us together, it is also the one that saw us apart.. oh well.. i need a life outside this sport..

oh ya last thing.. this phrase is damn right now.. "FUBAR" which means, fucked up beyond all recognititon

*her name is celestial*
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{ 1:40 AM }

TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE ARCHERS AND READS MY BLOG, YAYAYA NAPECS IS MY NEW LIMBS AND I BOUGHT IT MYSELF. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY OLD FUCKING INNO LIMBS!

I cant stand it already... just finish being fucked by ace's godfather.. i really cant stand it.. "wo ren de hen xin ku.." who can really understand me... who can really help me... who can really console me..... i see nobody...

He said you've done wrong so let me fuck you the way i want to fuck you. i did nothing wrong by just saying the truth... only the truth.. i'm really tired...

Wanna fuck me by all means... i can take it.. but please.. dont use that.. DONT USE HER.... i aint that strong to withstand this blow... i'm trying my best and very very hard to let go.. please dont pour salt into my already bleeding wound... i aint as strong as i look... alone behind this panel of lcd my tears wet the keyboard too... i'm human..

i have tried my very best to hold everything up... to 'ren'... people that was my very first relationship which had ended not too long ago..

after 1 month of holding back... tears flowed again... as he used her stuff to fuck me up... my fatal blow..............

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 { 8:26 PM }

wow i must say we had unexpected guest today training with me and weiliang.. Mr Chang came to train with us today.. he is on leave.. and also very commonly, he is a good man! will say about this later..

damn.. training was hardcore again.. i needa get used to this new Napecs 44lbs limbs.. i'm already acustomed to GMX's 42lbs and now i'm struggling back to a higher poundage and stiffer bow.. who ask me backside itchy.. =)

after training lim ask me and weiliang to go to KOVAN find him for some reason and to commend about his new proto type bow case.. well, what i say its a improvement from the previous prototype which wendy is using.. this is more strudy, but damn wide i can say.. difficult to take bus.. price aint very cheap too.. but looks nicer.. (price, out of the topic)

and guess what? mr chang volunteered to drive us all the way to KOVAN and back to west side you know.. wa kao petrol no need money huh? to and fro.. he's really good till over the damn damn line le.. i can only take off my hat at him.. and he knows i'm very vexed at something and he offered to take it on him.. wa kao again.. not his problem but he offered to shoulder it over.. i appreciate it very much man.. very very much.. but its too big.. sorry mr chang.. =)

anyways i'm quite happy.. i manage to revive something.. i'll do whatever which is in my power to revive the old days.. soon ya'll will see what is it.. but not now.. and ya not only the old days, but i myself like the thing.. besides mine, this is the next i'd choose.. so.......... =)

ok talking back into the weekends about girl girl... yes i was damn pissed off with her in the afternoon on sunday.. but at dinner time, its a whole different story...

i spent 1h40min to peel the 34 berries and my mum knows it.. although i close de door and do it.. i dont like them to know.. haha.. den when she came and mum was doing final touches to the dinner, girl girl was running up and down the kitchen.. we split into 2 shifts to eat and look after small girl.. mine was the first shift.. and i was on the massage chair talking to kor.. mum ask me to eat i was still sitting there.. so, she tell girl girl ah gu (uncle in hokkien ) mum mum finish give you blue berry...
*i dont feel comfortable letting people know i care... funny eh*

THEN! girl girl RAANNN out of the kitchen to me in the hall pointing at me shouting, MUM MUM! lol so cute.. like she really understands man... asking me to eat my dinner.. then kor was talking to me ma, said to girl girl, you ownself dont eat you kpo people for what?
lol i was laughing all the way man... so cute girl girl... you can never get enough of this small girl...

lol i practically love cute girls rather den pretty or mature girls... ok la girl girl is exception cox she's my neice.. talking about the girl which will most likely to catch my attention is those type who is cute rather then pretty or hot.. i dono why.. i just prefer cute girls..
and please, not act cute type, is naturally cute kind... like those button nose, small small size.. lol my standard perhaps.. oh well, there are bound to be others out there.. just have to wait and keep lookin.. no hurry man. =)

and yesterday video chat with ping overseas at shanghai.. glad to hear that she is ok and happy with her environment over there... and her place is quite nice from what she showed me.. a nice environment for 5 girls.. video call can be quite interesting and fun.. lol.
act cute here and act cute there... both of us.. and dono why her friends say i look cute with my specs on? oh man... cute on man is not very alright... not at all.. =)







*=)*
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009 { 8:52 PM }

ok let me say i'm changing my lifestyle now.. and its for real..
monday and friday no shooting, go swimming laps at jurong swimming complex... if rain, i'll go gym at my CC..
tuesday to thrusday shooting at zhenghua 11 - 4, min. 144 arrows. followed by jogging of 4.8km around jurong park connector, cannal drive. my secondary school 2.4km route.. followed by my 6kg dumbell weight lifting 50 times each of 3 styles... if rain and never go shoot or jogging, weight lifting will quadrople to 200 times each of the 3 styles..

AND i ran 4.8km today.. GOD my timing was godly.. 37.28min. sucks man. but anyways ever since i grad from sec school i have never been jogging or taking part in 2.4km run.. always 'chao geng' lol.. if u get my hokkien. and my leg aches now.

had dinner at the hawker center alone opposite of mayfair there.. disappointed the famous boneless chicken rice didnt open but the famous ba kut teh got open.. so i ordered.. damn its ex.. $4.5 with rice.. plus my sugar cane alr 5.5.. can eat mac liao.. but anwyays their ba kut teh is forever so nice.. half way into my meal, got people come to eat the same thing as me, but just nice sold out.. i got one of the last few bowls.. the person complain in cantonese "i come down all the way from sengkang den just nice dont have.. haix." so long i didnt come to this coffeeshop alr. ever since i grad from sec school.. =)

I seriously needa get a pair of new running shoes. my nike air which i bought since sec2 is givin me hell! ya it used me dono how many tubes of super glue already. literally everytime i wear it i needa glue some part of it. haix.. who ask me so poor? i really cant afford new shoes now.. if you see my training shoes, please dont laugh.

yes today was shadow's debut.. i still like the inno feeling.. perhaps the grip i guess.. too used to it. and shadow gave me a stern warning for not using her so long.. my 1st shot of bareshaft miss board. where i pass with gmx. and, I CANT FIND THAT BARESHAFT! my bareshaft all quite new you know.. now left one only.. sad case. tmr will look for it again.. but hope is small.. haix......... i'm sad.


my verdict for NAPECS limbs is that, ITS GOOD! better than TX990 from hoyt and i vouch for it. even weiliang also say napecs really an improvement from the inno power limbs. in terms of speed of arrow and the speed it settles.. the verdict by 2 equippement critics that its a good limb.. so if you're considering about it, get it. although the lamination sucks.


weiliang recorded a couple of videos for me.. my crap form.. i'll upload it, but PLEASE DONT LAUGH! i'm tired you know..

crap form

shit form

back in action (my clicker is old school "no money")

*was hoping you can train with me.....*

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Monday, September 7, 2009 { 8:17 PM }





*black and white is once again in fashion*
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Sunday, September 6, 2009 { 6:05 PM }

wow today woke up to stream thunder and lightning.. quite hardcore like fireworks like this.. although i'm not going for training but i still msg weiliang to tell him the weather.. lol den he oso not training liao..

yup.. went down to fetch ping, her mum and dad and xiao gu and headed down to changi airport T3.. ping is leaving for shanghai 10.10am plane.. quite funny is china eastern airlines at T3.. quite odd.. wait for she and her frens to check in baggage then went to eat breakfast at the kopitiam.. wa kao today i eat 3 half-boiled eggs.. although its my favourite and i very very long never eat, but abit too much le ba.. scared.

then soon it was time to go into the gateway.. got a weird weird feeling.. but maintened by cool.. lol. her mum and dad miss her so much.. they told me in private.. er gu and er gu zhang... left 2 old one in the house, very quiet he said. sad.

and thenn... i went to SIMEI to meet our "BELOVED" COACH! yes he was late for 40MIN! like idiot walking around east point.. i think its called east point.. and yes, SHADOW IS BACK IN ACTION! and will continue being my PRIMARY BOW! crystal will be my spare.

say until wat, i still love my shadow.. got quite a meaning to it.. its my very first bow, she used it be4 and i just simply love it.. the original black and white inno. but, the limbs slightly different. all thanks to my coach... -_-
*ya i paid the cost. and i'm broke*

back to lunch at da gu's house, today was kong ba bao.. quite nice, her skills definiately improved.. but! girl girl was so naughty today.. i literally scolded her right from the bottom of my heart. my temper aint very good today... then she like dont wanna play and talk to me... ok lor sua... i'm at fault also..

then on the way back in the car, girl girl gei si gei si ("act die act die") come sa jiao to me... haha... ya la how to not heart soft? i love her anyways..

and i just peeled finish 24 blue berries which took me 1hour and 40min. the berries are so bloody small, same size as a shibuya sight pin tip.. goodness.. so soft also.. hard to peel and keep it in one peice.. i want perfect 1 ok.. so very slow.. and yes, its all for EUDORA CHAN! aka girl girl... although she maybe naughty, but i still love her.. lol

Last time if you can catch me doing these things like peeling fruits, prawn or anything, u better buy 4D or TOTO. cox confirm tio one.. i dont have the bloody patience, dedication and dont wanna get my hand dirty..

lol i feel i've changed quite alot.. abit that i dont recognise myself le.. all my principles changed.. hope its for the better ba.. dont decline..



fingers bloody dirty and cant wash off the colour

after 1hour 40min

Saturday, September 5, 2009 { 8:08 PM }

hmm let me see.. training is on as usual.. quite scrotching again today.. i guess by the time school re-open my old school mates wont be able to recognise me man.. like bangala already.

Shot a series of distances today and wrapped it up with 90m.. goodness mr chang shoots well in 90m.. quite consistant to our suprise.. he finally tried the distance i have been pestering him to try since late of 2008.. haha.. and yes, my score is like shit again.. i don't know is it me, or is my body very tired from previous days of training without enough rest.. my form is like shit... "tak bo leh.."

Anyways ping is leaving for shanghai tmr le.. 10am plane.. china eastern airlines.. take care girl! haha anyways i'll be sending you off tmr.. and lim wants to meet me at changi tmr.. sian.. money involved again.. i can never stop owing him can i? lol need to find myself a finance minister.. erm.. also add education minister, social minister, secretary, transport minister if possible..

Ok talking about small girl.. that cute little girl i love so much.. lol
this girl ar.. i think she's getting fond of me playing with her.. she will listen to me le... that day went to ah mah house for her birthday, the place was messy because its small and crowded.. kor didnt want her to wonder around because of people and glass table.. kor and jie ask her to stay and sit.. she dont listen..

I was beside them and i called out girl girl... she looked at me... i gestured her to come infront of me.. she walked to me immediately.. then i tap on the ground and told her to sit down.. she immediately sat and played with me... hahahaha... cute leh.. then when she started throwing her stuff, i looked at her and in a stern voice said, NO AR GIRL GIRL! she stopped immediately..

Hmm not say i only like people who listen to me... but this girl knows that i love her and wants only the best for her... you may not understand why now.. but in the future you will... =)
*if you understand my form of care: not minding you hating me, but i just want the best for the one i love (if not i wouldnt even bother.. why would i want another enemy? i would rather a hi by fren)* ^although i maybe wrong at times.. i'm only human.. forgive me.. =)^

talking about the old days, i have not always done the stuff i should as my status should, but i worked late into the night to provide the person i love with the things she needs but aint always important and what she really wanted.. but i really do care in my own way. supporting behind the curtains.. designing new stuff, improving on current stuff.. thats why i'm always so tired.. lol. also my games.. lol. at night then got the inpiration *although not all stuff i make is successful.. i only declare the successful stuff.. lol*

That day went to jie's house to deliever them the "ji dan gao" egg cake the gu jie's made... kor ask me to go in and tour her room... wow it was so well decorated by her parents... and kor opened his room door to let me see girl girl sleeping... haha... my little angel is sleeping... ya she's my neice.. lol.. so cute her sleeping pattern.. spread out openly.. like a "da" big word in chinese on her mattress.. i see her rashes have subsided.. =)

Previous weeks she had rashes i dont know what made it.. see le very "xin tong" heart pain.. poor little girl.. anyways thanks sis for giving me some organic lolly pops.. quite nice and quite different from anything outside.. because its, organic........

Anyways now i practically have nothing to look forward to le... maybe only the thought of seeing girl girl each weekend ba... thats the only thing i'm looking forward to and pushing my days on... see who can gimme the feeling of looking forward again... fuel my engine to steam full speed ahead.. =)
*opening up*



*no choice, but to accept*
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