Name: Eugene
School: Republic
Age: 20 and counting

About you: Having a total mind of my own. Few can penetrate, only one can manipulate.

Theory: Life without you must go on, but life with you would be perfected

Fact: Caring and doting on the people I love, in my own special way. =)

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Monday, August 31, 2009 { 9:00 PM }

ok today i'm supposed to be at east coast for the SEG talk and bbq.. but totally have no mood.. so... yup! at home whole day. woke up, did some DIY stuff, changed my bed sheets and other rubbish things i havent been doing for months..

ahhh... nothing beats the smell of nice new sheets.. but mine look a little childish. but who cares? haha..

and yes like my title.. days are bored, boring, bordest! i literally have nothing to do and is playing the games i played in sec3 (battlefield vietnam).. how old school is it? you tell me.. gonna get out some day man. i'll die.

i came across this biscuit my dad brought back from his office.. i cant believe even an MNC like United Overseas Bank have rituals like 7th mth and stuff.. still distribute sugar, oil, salt, magiee and buscuits to all staff.. guess what the brand of the biscuit is? its IKO! for archers, you should get what i mean.. pictures will be uploaded.



IKO biscuit

ok i know this doesnt match my style.. but its nice!


*七上八下*
没有你的第66天

Saturday, August 29, 2009 { 10:04 PM }

agreeing with my title, i have nothing much to blog about actually.. a few shocking events took place these few days which i'm totally aware and have nothing to comment about.. what i have to say is, if its your's it will be.. it work all ways.. for me, for you and for everybody..

training at zheng hua today was crap i would say.. add up whole day not even 2 sets i guess.. waste time slack slack slack.. anyways miss lui on top abit bo ho seh liao.. lol. and i'm enjoying talking to mr chang.. you needa get into some shit before you can see the real power of mr chang.. lol. i was shocked ok.

my cousin ping, aka valerie goh is going on a attachment course to shanghai this coming friday.. good luck girl! need any money urgently you can always look for kor... (me). emergency only ar.. i'm also quite tight.

i'm getting quite disappointed over something that is happening all these while and most of all, today.. in hokkien there is something called qeh xim.. means utterly disappointed. not that i was not accepted, but the attitude after everything i've put in.. thats all.. i'm easy to please now.. never make use of eugene. please treat him sincerely.. he will know it and appreciate it.



my dinner (korean cuisine)

*qeh xim*
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Thursday, August 27, 2009 { 8:40 PM }

ok man... start of a loonnnnggg and boring holiday it is... went ite ct after lunch with weiliang at cityvibe.. for those of you wanna know where is this cityvibe cox the name quite style right? don't bother. its like a neighbourhood shopping center with place to cut hair, place to eat and your regular hp shop.. dont waste your time..

rain rain rain the whole day.. so sian.. tot of shooting but it spoilt my mood.. so shoot the board inside the room.. which is like 1.5m? shortest distance ever! with only a long rod.. haha.. bua pattern.. and i hit my hand on everyshot.. forgot to bring armguard.. and funny thing is it was 1.5year since i last hit my hand..

thanks weiliang.. for making new string for me.. very nice workmanship! =)

Mr lim came after me and weiliang had a badminton session... it was ages since i last played badminton man.. now suck like hell.. haha.. must go out some time for a badminton session soon.. and you know what? I dono what to say about mr lim man.. haix.. he is really sucking my blood dry.. help me with something, got condition. condition is to get something of his choosing.. if not he wont help... GOD! now my net worth is NEGATIVE VALUE MAN! i owe mum, owe doreen, owe weiliang, OWE MR LIM!
*can i declare bankcrupt please?*

hmm tmr will be going out with a portion of the asses gang to safra jurong again to get the k-box job there... do come there to sing karaoke when got time ok? inform me 1st.. i may be able to give ya'll free stuff! lol

Oh ya.. got a warning letter from RP yesterday.. mum passed it to me.. she didnt open, it was addressed to me not to parents.. but title is "Letter of warning" and it can be seen without opening.. she asked me to explain to her what is it all about.. dad came in, read it too.. mum gave no comments and walked out, dad just said don't do it again...

haix.. they're disappointed and i have a feeling of remorse and saddness they're disappointed wiith me.. eugene is improving.. he have a sense of remorse now.. haha.. good thing i guess..
*all thanks to wendy.. thats why my family love her.. =)*


my little tortise (its dirty i know.. but i like it this way!)

mos meal, neatly placed out..

letter of warning


*=)*
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009 { 11:59 PM }

today....... IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!! erm.. semester actually.. lol.. and yes did something stupid when leaving the school compound.. shouted, YES! NO MORE PROGRAMMING!!! HAHAHA! lol.. abit not my style huh? but yea.. programming is really beating the shit out of me.. glad its gone for good man.. communications will be comin up next..

oh man.. which means today is the last official day of w15n.. damn sad u know.. after half a year.. lol.. we had quarrels we had fights.. BUT! its all good.. and i love it.. (lol like saying a girlfriend).

I think i'ma very well repeat math and hopefully not programming the next semester man.. I'll die.

Anyways those bunch of asses came all the way down to jurong just to have lunch with me.. ohhhh sweeeett!.. lol.. thinking too much. We headed down to K-box safra Jurong... wow i tell you, the place is high-tech ok? the choosing song console is not a TV, but a TOUCH SCREEN CONSOLE! high end man.. can record your singings and bluetooth to your phone too.. sweet!
*more videos and voice clips coming up soon!*

And yes.. those of you who have been with me to k-box, will know that i'ma "talented guy"... kumar is talented woman, i'm talented guy... lol! (if you get what i mean)
They all xia dao (shocked) when i used the pitch to sing and with actions... more then the previous times when i went with archery people and ite friends.. lol... NOW IS ALL OUT! AWWWESOME!!!

lol.. it is what you get when EUGENE, DONT CARE ABOUT FACE ANYMORE! haha.. sorry aar guys.. spoilt your image of me while i'm in class and outside right? so not like me.. you'll only see this when i get CRAZY!!!..
*sorry.. up there dam bor bo ho seh liao...*

Hardcore part is, we stayed at K-box from 2pm allllll the way till 11pm... hardcore eh? haha.. 9hours singing.. had 3 drinks.. shirley temple, hot honey, tiger draught.. actually i'm begining to like hot honey whenever i go k-box... last trip there i also had one.. may consider working in k-box here for school holidays.. do come and look for me people! =)
*thx doreen for lending me money for the extra hours!*





my last drink of the day


touch screen console

Monday, August 24, 2009 { 6:41 PM }

oh man... the math ut3 is horrendously hard/difficult/crap, what ever you can call it man.. I think i'm gonna repeat math module already next year.. anyways thanks ken, wayne and doreen for their help for this UT.. i did refer to ya'll stuff during test.. =)

Tommorow will be another hard hard UT.. PROGRAMMNG! the subject i'm most afriad of now.. haix.. i'd need all the help i can get man.. be it human or supernatural.. lol. It'll be the last official day W15N will be together le.. I have a feeling of discontent and saddness... Anyways this class gave me a good inpression of RP.. its a good start.. I hope next one will be at least this good?
*ya, you wish eugene.. you tot everyday sunday right?*

Wendy is going for her world archery championship at korea this coming sunday.. GOOD LUCK GIRL!!! all the best.. and i will soooooo miss her.. yup i'm frank. lol. anyways in sg or overseas, i still miss her.. who ask i didnt cherish the chances she gave me? ok movin on...
*take good care of yourself!!!*

I've been seeing this meaning on the scv and email i think... would you be with a person who you truly love OR the person who treats you better? a multi-million dollar question eh? Have sometime to ponder over it.. I have been thinking over and over this statement.. I have no definate answer too.. But i think i will go with the meaning of:
I WOULD RATHER BE WITH THE PERSON I TRULY LOVE.
like this then i won't regret my life in the future.. haha..

people can try very very hard to get to you and love you.. you may be touched yup... But i guess what really matters is who do you really love... love is not compassion, love is not "si she", love is not who put in more who wins... Its a feeling of passion.. yup! i got the word.. haha..

Its like the feeling between like and love...
like is something that you desire for short term satisfaction, it is always so attractive, but can live without.
Love is something that you think you don't require, it is always overlooked, but actually can't live without.
*actually i edited it from definition of wants and needs, lol*

And yes.. I know who do i like and who do i really love.. likes can have plenty... but for love i only have one, besides my family... you've guessed right, wendy. good things are worth the wait.. =)
*things wont be like the past*


*a feeling of pain yet with a kiss of happiness*
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Sunday, August 23, 2009 { 8:01 PM }

Saturday, August 22, 2009 { 7:37 PM }

hmm today is the one year once pesta sukan again... BUT! this year i didnt join.. Last year's pesta sukan i did shit for my individual, but got GOLD for teamevent.. =) And is also my granny's death day... I cried until my eyes all swollen then go and shoot.

At 4am in the morning Da Gu called our house saying granny may not make it.. But i'm soo tired and there is teamevent later on.. So i did not rush down with my family to go to see granny... at 6am, mum called me.. I was so afriad to pick up and yes.. granny just passed away.. I did not get to see her for the last time and the whole month before it.. Every week I'll have to go down to her place for dinner, but due to competition coming and training, i did not...

Granny didn't get to see this unfilial grand son for the last time... being her one and only grandson... The sky was raining for the whole day... just like my feelings.. But i know i had to win something if not it was all for nothing.. Granny did bless me with a GOLD medal.. =)
Wendy was there to support me the whole time... Granny was one of the person i loved the most in this world... =)
*The impact was epic.. lucky there was wendy =)*

Anyways back to topic... I went down to support mustafa... (actually i went down to support and see wendy... shhh!) haha people do stupid things when they are stupid.. Thats why I bring my binoculars for... see mustafa's board become see her board.. lol.. There was a few ends she shot not too well, but she did GREAT!
*hope no one saw that..*

Oh ya talking about things in the week... Looking at them drive, I can't help wondering how do they remember all the routes and roads? if you ask me, it all looked the same.. all black with white lines... I'll get lost man.. That why i don't very much feel like getting a lisence.. I WILL GET LOST! and i need a good navigator to sit beside me to ask me turn left, turn right or SPEED UP! lol.. preferably my gf next time can do that..
*and to tell me is there's ERP and TP!!!*

AND! doreen have been saying this for like a month already.. i only remember now and is posting this up.. she said: if next time me and eugene got children, she can be called eugreen! goodness shit right? if you get the meaning.. lol. And wayne joined in the fun say son can be called DA BIAN. I dono why are they discussing the names of my children next time.. so wrong.

I have came up with a name for my daughter quite sometime ago.. which i still feel its quite nice.
English is: Evelyn Chiam
Chinese is: Zhan Si Ling
nice right people... lol.. came up with this almost 1 year ago i guess.. when she was still with me.. so sweet the name.. at home can call her evelyn, or e~ve... =)
*but first, i would need a wife.. lol*


*i will always be here for you... if you let me.. =)*
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Friday, August 21, 2009 { 9:10 PM }

lets start from the morning.. doreen was late so she cabbed down to school.. as usual i took 187 to interchange and doreen instead of going to school straight, offered to wait for me at interchange.. then walked to school together.. nice.. =)

Ok i have things to complain about Cognitive UT3.. I don't have enough time to properly do all the questions lor.. rushing through the questions and not doing my best.. Typing until the very last second before the UT portal threw me out.. But i'm quite happy with my last question of the UT.. for those who have done the UT, here it comes.
Just like any other animals for example nyeenas steal food from lions in the wild, it works the same way as when the villagers steal from the lions.
As the term goes: It is only business, Nothing personal.

After the test was thinking where should we go.. so early and nowhere to go.. saw her walked out of school with him.. controll.. =)
Anyways we decided to go to T3, yes you heard right... Changi Terminal 3 to eat popeye... it is the very 2nd time i've been to T3 and the very first time i was there is also to eat my dinner at tepanyaki... lol
I still think the popeye i had at the flyer is nicer.. =)

Walk walk around T3 and T2.. joking around and its quite fun joining in talking crap sometimes.. haha... if it was last time me, i'll be damn dulan man.. but things have changed.. haha... I'm good.. and enjoying it.. =)

And ya.. last time wanna get me out of the house is like wanting my life.. must threaten or must have consequences then i will have to go out... But now i enjoy being outside more then home.. lol.. ironic eh?

People have been asking me saying since i've been saying she's so accommodating, so flawless, so perfect, why did she still leave? Well, what i can say is the eugene ya'll know today ain't the eugene back than.. A complete ASS.
*you have been giving in all these while.. its time for me to give in to you..*

Maybe in the future when she've seen how i've changed she'll give me the chance to truly love her this time... accept me again as her future... come back to me... also if god wills...
*nothing is too difficult for me to change... for you..*


The grand marble/glass facade

Anyone catching a flight?

SQ landing



Last but not least.. MY LUNCH!


*i will wait for you..*
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Thursday, August 20, 2009 { 9:37 PM }

today is something special... had breakfast at mac before going to school at 11 for UT3 with the bunch of asses.. lol..

UT3 science is easier then i expected.. anyways thanks doreen for sending me all the 6ps for science... now no one to take care of my stuff le abit messy... lol

AND, we watched movie again today.. hahaha... 4 movies in a row already this week.. watch some sort of a romance and commedy show today.. suprisingly its the best of the 4.. I quite love this show.. although its not war war stuff.. lol. the meaning behind this show is quite nice.. worth me downloading it and watch again as future dinner movie... =x

Actually i'm thinking very hard of what to say.. got quite alot in my mind but all stuck cannot come out.. den doreen is there bugging me why haven post yet.. lol..

Oh ya.. i just repaired my sight pin at the expense of my old standard class sight pin.. sorry old friend. Hope this one won't break again.. again DIY some stuff to help prevent it from breaking again.. lol. I LOVE D.I.Y.-ing stuff.. its in my blood... Making things happen.. =)

Anyways my week's reserve is depleting at a very alarming rate... Gotta slow down le.. try to amess some reserves back for rainy days.. lol. Maybe because i'm too bored.. spending so much outside these days.. maybe holiday time i should cook dinner at home.. save my pocket money..
But i don't feel like "chong chu jiang hu" making a come back without a very good reason.. so i'm still considering should i or should i not accept the cooking job..

I very much wanna be with you to share your woes and worries.. very very much.. help you in anyway i can.. but... haix.
Anyways tmr is ur 2's 2nd month.. happy 2nd month... =)


*I feel very very helpless looking at the person i love so troubled*
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009 { 6:22 PM }

hmm yesterday was last day of school and also doreen birthday.. happy belated birthday again girl.. hahaha. and today is my dad's actual birthday.. gonna go out for dinner later.. bloody hell he ask me bringing anyone along? ass..

Watched 3 movies in 3 days.. abit hardcore.. they all shouting for help le.. all no money.. hahaha. I'm still good.. i have the reserves.. and anyways today is UT3 enterprise.. I can say the paper is so bloody easy can? all you needa do is have the provided 6Ps and don't be lazy or shy using it.. confirm can get you at least 80%..

Semester 1 have ended... next time going back to study will be a new environment, new class, new people.. like back to day 1 when everything was new and shitty.. I will so miss our clique's asses.. hahaha.. weijie, doreen, wayne, william, huiling, shiyi, ken, ansel... they're the nicest bunch of friends i can ask for in times of crisis and hopefully in good times too.. got time go lim teh ok? err sorry, is teh ka dai.. hahaha right doreen?

I so love being with friends nowadays.. hate to go home.. so boring.. haha.. even if its sitting at esplanade looking at the IRs, feeling the wind in our faces and talking crap.. Sometimes even doing nothing with the people you care for means everything le.. A step off my busy and stressful life..

After lunch went to library with wayne and people.. he was like playing at the piano there again and MY GOD. it never fails to impress me when i hear the nice sounds of the piano.. (of course its played well.) Listening to the piano and the soothing sounds it produces, it really soothens my mind.. my mind have been pretty cropped up recently.. I'm sorry to disturb you..

Talking about piano, next time my kids must learn piano young.. perhaps the age of 4 or 5... Its an asset knowing piano.. until my age now then learn, rusty liao.. My house next time will never follow my hobby of sound systems, high tech gadgets... Although its my hobby, but i would rather want a nice environment for my wife and kids next time.. I would rather spend 10k on ONE piano for my children then on my hobby...
I'd love my family more then loving myself.. Will never follow in the foot steps of what i'm living in now..

thinking also true.. he waited for her for 2 years.. why can't i? after all this happened, do i love her less then him? NO. after spending 2 years with her, finding out she's not worth my effort? NO. perhaps i'm only mentally weaker.. never had and lost a girlfriend before.. The only thing i can do now is wait, hope and pray ba...

my clique at w15n have seen how i have became more approachable, nicer and fun to be with through this whole time... how i opened up, not so critical and always thinking mine is always right.. not always only thinking for myself.. more willing and patient in teaching too.. (right doreen? lol)
*learning the term, patience is a virtue.. (good things are worth the wait)*

Working in a team works wonders on seeing one's true colours.. think i have passed the test.. passed with a result i will have these friends who will always be there for me... =)

lol who say eugene can't be changed? its only see he want or not..


*it is you who made this miracle happen..*
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009 { 9:12 PM }

I really don't know what should i say right now.. saw them walked pass holding hands at woodlands interchange..........
my heart was like pierced by dono how many shots of arrows... she look so tired.. qiao chui and slim... they stopped to topup her card i guessed... he saw me i guess.. our eyes crossed path..

I felt like calling doreen, weijie or wayne.. the pain... ahhh! but i know its a battle i must win.. myself.. for the whole 1 hour ride home was listening to only 1 song.. repeatedly.. 我一个人住.
my hands went cold...


*i miss your warm little hand, touches...*
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Monday, August 17, 2009 { 8:16 PM }

Programming P15 today, and i'm so not into it.. stayed in school until lunch time and we left school.. its my first time doing this.. haha.. anyways i still have the full 10 Xs i still can use.. never missed a lesson since start of school.. I'm very tired, but no occassion to use it.. stay at home oso so sian.. so...

Hmm yup went to causeway to watch the movie where got ghost.. quite hilarious but i feel the previous money not enough 2 is nicer.. or is it because of my mood? haha who knows. oh ya.. when buying ticket time i saw liting.. haha this aunty also skipped school and is watching the same movie and same timing as me.. after movie went back to RP with doreen and people to acc her to pay school fees..

during the movie, doreen passed me one stack of papers.. which i am so touch... infact very touched... since the time my math is brought down by my cheating, ken, doreen and wayne have been saying wanna help me with it.. Ken did it on microsoft words and wayne asked me to look thhrough and ask him anything i dont know...

Doreen is incharge of P1-5 i think.. and she did it on paper.. pain stakingly writing everything down, with different colour pens and highlighting important points. I have seen her working on these papers and asking facilitator on which she is not sure on.. I thought it was all her revision..
But today then i understand.. it was all FOR ME!
I'm very touched.. thanks guys... and most of all, thanks girl.. i appreciate this very much.

It was very long since I was this touched.. too long... since i felt this magnitude of love... in this case, my buddy..
Out in this cold world, someone still cares for eugene.. =)
*a sudden jolt of energy recharged*

Going head on and giving my best to the world is taking its toll on me.. I'm getting very tired of it.. ever since i came into RP i've been going on overdrive putting in 99% of my energy in school work.. I have neglected many people and they have suffered.. so have I. I have lost the real meaning of love, chasing maximum grades.
For enterprise what is the point of getting all As, daily grades and UTs? I don't see the purpose now..

There are things out there much more precious and important compared to acheivement.. "she me dou you jia, zhi shi qing qing wu jia", for everything there is a price. but for love, its priceless.
*I regret it very much.. i have learnt this lesson and it will never happen again*


*我一个人住*
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Sunday, August 16, 2009 { 8:57 PM }

{ 3:32 PM }

hmm today at training again mr chang made me laugh the most.. haha.. anyways today is my dad's 60th birthday, and he's so talking about it day and night.. ok i shall buy you a cake later when dinner time. mum and sis got him a pen each. mum's dunhill sis's parker.. both quite nice, but i prefer parker's. style man.. haven got one of those with my name on it before.. haha..

oh ya damn shit. my titan sight pin broke. it cost me 148 ok?i'm like so xin tong.. 148 for a sight pin is crazy enough and yet it broke. to hell with it. trouble never comes alone. (huo bu dan xing)

had lunch at JP dian xiao er with jie's family.. haha little girl dont recognise me because i didnt wear spectacles and of the dim light.. she was staring at me the whole time with those frowning face which will cry any moment.. haha.. took her awhile to figure out who am i... later on the car trip back home, i sayang her face and she feels so loved.. keep sa jiao and want more.. hahaha... she've got a similar nose shape with wendy which i find it so cute.. lol
girl girl loves me.. =x
*paiseh ar karin... hahahaha. joking*

kor had a little chat with me and,
"from what he saw and talked to her before also didn't quite understand how did it happen so fast. and said, the guy may do the things she wants very very well. But it doesnt represent anything. Ok we all know your(eugene's) attitude, but she may have saw something in you even more special than doing the things she want a bf to do.
Perhaps feelings, perhaps your background. Its something no one will be the same with you. Furthermore i can still see you love her and your attitude did improve. Well, who knows?
For us we're ok. But mum and gujies part will be much difficult. You must understand they're old le. It might be hard for you, but you must try."


*the ability is one thing, while feelings is another... ability can be trained and learned, feelings can never be the same no matter how hard you try*
*the silver lining*

Saturday, August 15, 2009 { 6:01 PM }

day's as usual, training at zhenghua from 8-4. My mood was way way low today... totally dont have the mood to shoot.. yup i've seen things i would have cried looking at.. but take a deep breath.. *out of words*

ok.. i really needa go back to church and thank god soon... he is really sheltering me like forever? I though i was left to fend for myself today.. To my very suprise, Mr Chang understands and talked sense into me.. it helped.. a little.. thanks MR CHANG.

men must be xiao sa.. cannot lose your cool... you may have done very wrong things, but there will also be things you've done no one can ever replicate. she've chose this road herself, let her bear the fruits and sorrows herself. It have nothing to do with you now.. what is yours will eventually be yours.

anyways, yea i have not really made her very happy or accommodated her in a way that she liked very much. always doing things i think will be good for her not caring if she likes it. have always been behind the scenes preparing, creating and working. behind the curtains and never really been infront of it to enjoy the moment and what i had.
I should learn more to focus on the process and not solely on the outcome..
*so... i paid the ultimate price of losing her*

ya thinking back, its really quite bu ke shi yi (impossible). I ended up in ite because i was lazy to appeal at rp myself.. its odds were so low too...
next getting into the same class and knowing her was quite low in the odds too... people from different backgrounds and locations.. i didnt even know sembawang is on the red line..
next was getting together with her, she had a bf which i didnt really like to cross path with.. but yea, we overcame it.
next was her getting pass my stage and family's stage.. it was nearly impossible, but it happened.
next was breaking up, it didnt happened to me before so i didnt expected it will happen..

yes it all is bu ke shi yi.. like a dream. a dream i do not wanna wake up from.


*if we're meant to be*
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Friday, August 14, 2009 { 9:06 PM }

Ok let's start from the top down to the bottom.. The moment i open my eyes today i got scolded.. cox i wake up late and mum is nagging i hog the toilet.. please.. its usual timing.. only she early wake up.. geared up, contact lenses, sports gear on.. becox i'm going training after school today.. and my bag is damn heavy.. bow+lappy+adaptor, must squeeze with the crowd on the bus... -_-

Today's enterprise was again fairly easy... i got a good source again.. i merely changed the names.. haha... anyways today the malays are bycotting della... come at 2nd meeting, walked out when she's saying 6th P... when della ask them to present, they said dont want and didnt.. power man...

ok back to the day.. our team was rather weird today.. i was feeling down so i didnt talk much... ansel looking at his own stuff and left ken and doreen.. i dont really wanna know what happened, but doreen is pretty stressed out in recent days... as usual we left the class for toilet break in our guy clique.. den come back, doreen walked out of the class... less then 5 words, she broke into tears..

she walked right infront of me crying.. sorry girl.. i know i should have lent you a shoulder and consoled you.. but i really dont know what should i do at that moment.. so i let you passed.. it was an akward moment.. more over my mood aint as usual this morning.. quite bad..
Hope you are ok now.. feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk too.. dont coop up ok? You've been a great listener/advisor.. it works both ways.. =)
*after months of teaming with doreen and heart to heart talks, she's joining the ranks of my buddyship*

Ok for lunch time, quite normal.. going back from W6 time, a cockroach zoomed passed right infront of us.. ASS! i hate cockroaches.. those of you who seen before how i react to cockroaches, its our secret ok.. Today the sports sales is still on.. got myself a team RP jacket for only 7 bucks yesterday.. called wendy see if she bought it cox planned to get 1 for her too.. lol

So i perked myself up after lunch... if i dont be high, the team will die.. And again doreen is going crazy of the song 听海.. crazy as in crazy over me singing and irritating her... hahaha... everytime reach the chorus i will like sing it damn ji dong style with actions.. she'll always -_-...... hahaha.. like this den fun ma girl..
di siao doreen and huiling the whole time after that.. haha fun.. at least the class not so dull.. RIGHT DOREEN!

Was supposed to train with year1s and seniors of rp today... waited and waited, walked to sports com.. waited till 4.10pm... i really got no mood le.. walked all the way back to interchange and took 187 home.. I wasted my contacts, sports gear, damn heavy equipements and squeeze with people for nothing..
You're really damn weak and useless EUGENE! what happened to the objective orientated, on task, xiao sa and strong character? now like yi tan lan ni (a pool of waste mud). Who will like you like this? even friends also will start to hate you.. You have to get on with your life... Continue your Singaporean dream.. lol thats crap.

whole day my eyes is irritated man.. my right contacts siao siao.. made me even more tired. and end of the day.. i've found a good friend which may go a long way in life... =)
A quote from saving private RYAN (today's dinner movie), "angels on our shoulders" and "earn it".

*like mum said, i agree god has always been with me.. 1st fall admitting into ite, wendy supported me throughout the 2years.. 2nd fall breakup, i have many many friends advising me and staying with me throughout.. 3rd fall cheat, stanley was there for me and my good friends..
haha i'm always sheltered by love.. friend's love, love's love, family's love and most of all god's love..*


*its still you, whom i ever needed*
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Thursday, August 13, 2009 { 9:49 PM }

As semester is coming to an end, days are finally getting brighter and funnier.. I will miss W15N very much. Ok lets talk about today, cognitive P15.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009 { 10:36 PM }

Quite a number of days didn't talk to doreen on msn at home liao.. suddenly realise she know quite alot about what i'm thinking... scary.. haha.. see her quiet quiet everyday sit beside me spy! lol


mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *dont think so much
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *what is urs is urs
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *i realise u miss her everyday.
Eugene: =) says: *how u noe?
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *cos u talk abt her everyday
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *in class when we talking i can see that ur mind appear her
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *haaHaa
Eugene: =) says: *haha.. true
Eugene: =) says: *like hands and legs ba... short of any one of them, u wont feel comfortable
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *yup
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *when u alr used to her in ur life
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *suddenly she's not urs alr
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *will not used too
Eugene: =) says: *not used to is 1 thing... can get used to her nt around me de
Eugene: =) says: *but.. i'm missing out on something precious in life
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *something precious
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *cos u didnt treasure
Eugene: =) says: *yea.. now regret oso no use liao..
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *thats why we cannot make the same mistake next time
mOnKey...i slept till 8pm says: *but maybe to u, this time de mistake too big le
Eugene: =) says: *yes...

{ 8:06 PM }

ok now i'm bored and am blogging again.. Yesterday got a msg from elwin and yes.. I'm now a member of team republic archery team... dono who will be my teammate for pol-ite.. I guess will have to face own people from ite.. may the best man win!


Sunday mum talked about cooking on week days... she ask me cook since i'm so picky in what i eat.. HAHA sorry mum. I have no intention of cooking just yet.. To the people other den my sec sch mates, yes i know how to cook and pretty darn well.. haha.


So far i havent touched any pots and pans since i grad at sec5.. 3years already i guess.. they loved my food but i'm damn reluctant to cook.. so troublesome must wash.. somemore is own house.. cannot anyhow.. for those of you taking fnn u should know what i mean.. haha..

Last time i also allowed wendy to bake cookies only... damn troublesome to wash.. Then mum was like "oh ya talking about cookie, she makes nice cookies.." Mum loves the cookies she makes.. although mum is famous for hating butter made products.. quite surprising.


See how ba.. the one who can get me to cook again will have a pretty deep place in my heart.. definitely not my mum.. haha sorry..
*if its my gf, will cook nice food and feed her until fat fat.. lol. i love one whole family with my gf eating together...*


*I'm getting so afriad of being alone and afriad of the silence..*
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{ 8:37 AM }

Only one word to describe me... 犯贱

Tuesday, August 11, 2009 { 2:54 PM }

totally unbearable.. But still must bear.. I do not have a choice..

*everyday seems a life time... its killing me*

{ 11:02 AM }

28th April 2007